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@rotrazz I don’t let anybody think otherwise

@slut4glitter everyone in your life sees her as your number 1 and so does she and I can’t do anything about it I just wish anything could be done I don’t know I just can’t stand the thoight of you having fun being with anyone but me especially her and I don’t know why

A lot of people still Know as I me was in sixth grade when I showered like Twice a month and wore clothes literally 3x my size and I Looked like this . Oh my god why Was I allowed in public . but during that I was also dating like 5 people all at The same time So what do I know

@rotrazz where we’ll be I just don’t know what to do that we haven’t done already 40 times and I get really nervous for no reason all of the time and just stop talking or don’t do things and I have no clue why and everyone will always know you are my number one no matter what

@rotrazz But the thing is that you could never do anything that would make me see you in any other way than what I already do you are the most perfect person ever and nothing you can say do or anything ever will change that and I miss doing stupid shit all the time too and never knowing

@rotrazz but I want to do those fun things again too I just have nothing to talk about and we make so many plans but never do them I have nothing clue why they never happen and I’m sorry I’m like that and I have nothing to talk about and I never follow through on things

@slut4glitter chance we never will it sucks so badly because I know I'll never get to experience these things with you and she will

@rotrazz The only reason it’s so awkward is because the only thing I have to talk about is things that happen at school really and I know you don’t like when I talk about certain people so I try not to and it’s hard when there’s like 12 people I see everyday because the school is so small

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@rotrazz But the thing is that I care about you way more than anyone else because I am obsessed with you and I'm always thinking about you no matter what is happening and I know that doesn't really help anything but I care and love you more than anyone literally on earth

@slut4glitter it’s just 100x worse with her i can’t change it it makes me feel like one of those “insane” ex girlfriends that people talk about all the time because i shouldn’t be crying and sobbing just because you know and care about anyone other than me i don’t know whwts wrong with me

@rotrazz I'll stop talking about her and if I do hurt your feelings you need to tell me as soon as I do I can't take knowing that I ever did

@slut4glitter It’s just that I don’t know what’s possible to change here because I’ll always feel like this and there’s not really anything anyone can do

@rotrazz You aren’t a bitch I just need you to tell me how you feel because if I don’t know I can’t change anything if I don’t know what to change

@slut4glitter times to change the way I feel about it but it’s impossible I wish I wasn’t such a bitch I’m sorry

@rotrazz But I can’t know to not or if I’m doing anything wrong if you never tell me you’ve only said you don’t like her never anything more and I love you and you can not ruin this by doing anything when I say I’ll love you forever I mean it

@slut4glitter every time she’s mentioned or you talk about or to her I just don’t know how to fix any of it I’m not trying to be a bad girlfriend or anything and I don’t want to be I don’t know how to be better I’ve fucked up basically every relationship I’ve ever been in because Im like this

11 years ago today, @twentyonepilots released "Lane Boy"

@rotrazz me when youre bored but it’s hard to not feel that way when you don’t talk to me at all and when you do it’s only when you have nothing to do and I feel bad saying that because I know that’s not true but it’s just the truth of how I feel

@slut4glitter laughing with you but i genuinely don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me because i constantly think about you and her and it makes me cry almost every time and i don’t fucking know why if i could stop it i would but i genuinely don’t know i wish i wasn’t like this

@rotrazz There’s nothing in the whole world that I love more than you and I don’t have more fun with anyone every time I’m with anyone not just her I’m always saying I wish you were there at school on field trips hanging out everything no matter who it is and I know you don’t just talk to

@rotrazz But just giving up and not talking to me at all literally ever isn’t what you’re supposed to do how am I going to change or fix anything if you never tell me never talk to me and make me feel like I’m just something to talk to when you get bored

@slut4glitter because i don’t know how to respond anymore because no matter what i say i can never change anything and im a horrible person for wanting to change anything but this feeling will literally never go away it’s been like this for years and i can’t change that either

@rotrazz I dont understand I don't understand why you won't talk to me I don't understand why you can talk to everyone else and post on Instagram and reply to other people but not talk to me

@slut4glitter Man whatever I don’t know what else to say it’d be pointless

I haven't found a drop

11 years ago today, @twentyonepilots released "Stressed Out" ❤️