life goals:
• practice being a tender human. even more tender. heal the parts that are not. radical love/compassion.
• open a deer (& other creatures) rescue/sanctuary at a historic, beautiful home on a gorgeous plot of land that also serves as a retreat space.
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“You can be the last leaf. / You can convince the universe / that you pose no threat / to the tree’s life.”
— Maya Abu Al-Hayyat
poets.org/poem/you-cant
december.
thrown head-first into transformation, with a new understanding of what that means.
the only words my nearly two year old nephew can speak are “thank you.” which reminds me of Eckhart.
which reminds me that it’s all enough.
The sun rises again. Nature’s resilience is bizarre — the way it maintains rhythm.
I’m tender & primed for awe. Everything is making my heart gasp. I even think, “See? The wound is for this.” Little Soul and the Sun style. Us, volunteers.
Suffering for love has validated me:
you come back to yourself
again and again.
it is what the reckoning does,
when you find the tenderness
belly-deep and blistered
for you, for him, for you, for him,
i have never known a leaving
with so much love in it.
isn’t that what you set out
on your spaceship to prove?
suddenly, fall colors
& the window
brick building, screaming-lovely
in this simple air
telling the leaves about love
the not-quite-there love
still so honest
clay in the mystery’s hands
my teeth, your teeth, our mouths
wide open.
in this room with thousands of faces
you are the absence of a face
music: guttural, beligerent, electric,
and you are the electricity
the thing underneath all of the things
in my physical experience, now,
i feel you everywhere
my small language can’t reach you