ella ✿ relapsing

°⭒edtwt intro (again)//moot hunt!!⭒˚｡ . ݁₊ ★ella★ ݁˖ . she/her 21 queer ➜ chronically online im VERY active DNI: ☆fatphobes☆anti-recov☆minors☆ ♡ and ↺ to be moots!

lol bye sorry. i’ll miss u guys🥲

i have to stop this now or i am going to be sent to ed residential

i’m at the clinic at my treatment place and i don’t know what to do. but i was literally going to pass out so

how starving and also gain weight?????

i gained fucking weight again.

@cuirasseline MORNINGGGG

good morning gang!!

disordered eating by chance, isolating by choice🥹

i’m bad but lowkey wish i was worse

everytime i think about anything, my brain brings me back to ed

life so busy but good morning lovely moots💋💋💋

i have to talk in a process group about this tomorrow but i can’t get specific or i’m scared what would happen

even when i make myself look cute i always know i would look better if i were skinny

self awareness is a curse like ignorance genuinely is bliss

self sabotage sucks because what do you mean intentionally fucking up my life and i can’t stop

god i really hope i lost im so close to hitting a goal

i’m grumpy

having cramps to end all cramps

i’m gonna hold u to that.

@laurafallsz yayyy good!!! :)

@starvedgemini thank u sm 🙏 i’m feeling better now tho dw 😁

i feel so sad all the time lately and this was a problem before i stopped my antidepressants and also it’s sadness not depression which is different like wth ?? it’s probably bcs i’m lonely but also damn girl that’s mostly ur fault 🙄

@edcanaries wait i totally feel that

@starvedgemini Ill do you one better when you sit criss cross applesauce on the floor do you also feel like you’re rocking back n forth despite being still???

do y’all ever like feel like you are shaking when you aren’t?