lottie (6/36)

like my eating disorder would be 100% worse

im glad i live in america because being surrounded by severely skinny ppl 24/7 would trigger me 😭

started a three day fast and i just realized i won’t be able to eat until 8pm on my birthday 💔

I actually hate waiting to lose weight like can my body hurry up

DESPITE ME BEING AN ABSOLUTE FUCKING CHUD YESTERDAY I BROKE OUT OF THE 140’S JAIL

anorexia is so boring i have entered the phase where i just sit around waiting for time to pass again

i actually did really fucking good the first half of the day and was done eating around 4 i believe but i come home and fell asleep early so i couldn’t drink more water and get more steps in AND i fucking ate more food im suchhhh a chud fml

may 2 - 1,174 cals, 3,967 steps, & 1L of water

may 1 - 896 cals, 10k steps, & 2L of water ✔️

anybody else feel skinny as fuuuck when like ur sitting somewhere for a long time n then ur ass bones hurt

the concept of being big & small & big & small & big & small again & still nobody wants you

im going to being ia for a bit bc im graduating soon and need to LOCK IN

i opened the comments expecting fear from ppl with eds but then i realized i was on youtube shorts and not edtwt lmao

my biggest fear is plateauing

@SkinnyNStupiid wait what is the stuff on top is that pb ?

I thought this wld be sad but it was genuinely the best thing ive ever put in my mouth ❤️

@mandydiets right… i get to 10k steps and JUMP off my walking pad 😭

how i feel when people say they walk 30k steps every day

yall were not playing about drizzilicious

does anyone else switch up their thought process 800 times a day it’s so exhausting. “i’ll recover” “until i die” “ill decrease my intake” “no i’ll lower it” “there’s more to life than this” “eat” “don’t eat” again and again and AGAIN all within the span of ten minutes EVERYDAY

so many options of food for tmrw gosh

bruh this eating disorder is ruining all my other goals im ngl