the drummer

[PINNED] > tmarp oc, the drummer in grifters bone. other members are @/BonesToBleed @/gbonebass @/viounstrung @/idrisonkeys @/HE4RTSTR1NGS > modded by mito (@/humansasha and @/GrBookworm18), any pronouns, 22 > ill tag individual posts/threads but general tws below +++

@betterweatherd god, fuck. so am i!!! hate just. sitting. waiting. nothing getting better or worse. i like how we solve shit. wish she'd just try to kiIl me an get it out of her system. so we could move past it all.

@steadydrum …good. Threats are what she wants. I’m sure she’s waiting for an excuse to do something.

exhausted.

@betterweatherd nah. ur stuck with me 😘 meant more like. flowers. or threats, maybe? if she's not into the groveling thing...

@steadydrum …she. She would probably like it. If you broke up with him. But that’s not fair.

@betterweatherd ... fair enough. there's gotta be somethin. an olive branch. she's never gonna like me, but. I gotta do something! something she can't hate.

@steadydrum …I don’t know her like I used to. I can’t say for sure what she’d do.

@betterweatherd do u think she'd back off, tho. ... I dunno if I shld give her an inch. if itd soften her, or if she'd just take more. im talking strategy.

@steadydrum I don’t want you to give up someone you love because of me. That’s cruel.

@betterweatherd do you? its ok if u say yes. i wanna know. how off base she is, yk.

@steadydrum …Drummer, you don’t want that.

@betterweatherd ... do u think she'd back off if I broke up w him?

@steadydrum I don’t know. She’d say how she felt, and then back off. Maybe bring it up again later. But that’s just normal mom stuff, not… this.

@betterweatherd whatd she do if u did? disagree, I mean. smth she didn't want, didn approve.

@steadydrum She was… kind. She wanted to have things a particular way, she wanted me to listen to her, but… not like this. I wasn’t. I wasn’t afraid she’d do something if I disagreed.

@betterweatherd yea? what was she like?

@steadydrum She’s… …mm. I wish you had met her before. She was different.

@betterweatherd hey, it'll work out. we'll figure it out some how. ... whats ur mum like? how do I get on her good side.

@steadydrum … I hate this.

@betterweatherd cause then shed be the bad one. she wants me to be prove I'm impulsive. violent. angry. that i can't control myself. like I haven't had a handle on this shit longer than she's been alive.

@steadydrum Mm. She doesn’t want to be the one to start it, though.

@betterweatherd trying to get me mad. she wants a fight. I've seen it all the damn time.

@steadydrum …what do you think she’s doing?

@betterweatherd ... i wish she didn't get to me like this. i know what she's doing, an i just. let her get me riled up.

@steadydrum …I. I don’t think it’s possible, Drummer. Not after… everything.

@betterweatherd ... shouldn't we be. aiming for. more than that? shouldn't we want safety. I should want that for you.

@steadydrum …no. It’s easier when I’m with you, though.

@betterweatherd ... yea. I guess just. do you feel safe, then. are you safe.

@steadydrum A lot of things have happened, you have to be more specific.

@betterweatherd no, no. course not. but. , do. do you. you feel safe, right? after. what happened.

@steadydrum It’s not up to her.

@betterweatherd ... yea. ... I can't say I don't get it, yk.

@steadydrum It’s a big deal to me.

@betterweatherd sorry. its not. that big a deal, really? its like. most parents don't tend to like me, hehe.

@steadydrum …fuck. Okay. Right.

@betterweatherd broke the news to ur mum. probly shoulda let u talk to her first.

@steadydrum What’s wrong?

@arane0m0rphae ... yea thats about what worries me gabs.

@steadydrum I would do anything for her. Anything.

@arane0m0rphae an i wore a muzzle for a WEEK for fucks-- yr makin it really fuckin hard not to start a fight, gabs. why are u tryin to rile me up. I'm what tryin to have a conversation what the FUCK. is your angle.