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oh my god i have no purpose in life 😭😭😭

your words have bigger impacts than you’ll ever think

do people not realize the words they say are remembered and never forgotten?

“you’ll never lose the weight” okay thanks 😊

“youre just fat” thanks i know that..

i am seen by some as a object with no sense of autonomy and i would rather die in front of those very people then be “given” to a man

when i told my mom i was s€lf harm!ng and she says “how are you gonna get married now” LOLLLL KILL MEEEEE

gosh no one is ever there for me it’s upsetting my heart feels heavy and broken

“you shouldn’t be handling this all alone” bro what other choice do i have I HAVE NO ONE

coming home to screaming matches ain’t for the week let’s not even mention waking up to it

time to ignore it for the next 6 months

just let myself cry instead of ignoring it or holding it back

sometimes at night i get so anxious and then i think to myself “why am i so nervous about?” that should explain everything to know about me.

i lwk wish i had a father figure or probably just a happy family

like why is the love i’m given conditional love why can’t you just love me

realizing i have no one and never did is breaking my heart

the derealization is hitting hard this past year

genuinely why am i here why are we all here

everyday i live in the impending doom of my existence and thinking about how the hell i exist in a universe like this