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Living in Ky for all 38 yrs of my life, I’ve never cared for the derby this yr is a different story 🥰 He’ll be an hr from me, y’all 😭 But anyways, welcome to Ky, @machinegunkelly Hope everyone that crosses ur path will give u all the southern hospitality & love u deserve 🫶🏻

She’s always been that way. And it’s sad to see. I don’t care about appearances. Never have. I do what I want regardless of how others view me. So making other people mad isn’t anything new to me. She was even trying to guilt trip me saying well the family will look at you this way and that way and don’t be upset when they treat you like blah blah blah. Honestly, I could jump thru hoops and lay golden eggs, and they would still find something wrong with me. So again, nothing new to me. I think what upset me the most is that yes even though my miscarriage happened 12 years ago, I still have triggers. I still have feelings. I still miss my unborn child. And recently being told I’m unable to have children. That shit hurts. And to act like grief should just be swept under the rug… no.

it’s very obvious that she cares more about appearances than she does about what you’re going through you can’t make her understand though if you don’t have the capacity to show up for your cousin, that’s okay - it’s okay to choose yourself in this situation i’m sorry today’s not going swimmingly for you but just keep riding the wave … sending you love, friend!! 💙 xx

Ok. Serious question- am I in the wrong for not wanting to go to my cousins baby shower? I was supposed to go with my mom, texted her told her I’m not up for it. My social battery is drained, and I had a miscarriage 12 years ago, and she thinks I should just push that aside for the sake of my cousin, who I’m not even close to btw. I went to her wedding last year, so I don’t hate my cousin. We’re just not close. The more I try to explain how I’m feeling, the angrier she gets and makes me feel terrible for not going and that my grief doesn’t matter. That I should just push through it, suck it up, and deal with it. She called me screaming and yelling at me to the point where I’m now in tears and talking about how I’m making myself an outcast in the family bc I’m not going to this baby shower. I have been to every family gathering mind you, but I just wanna sit this one out, to protect my mental health.

Thank you. My mom obviously comes from an older generation where you do anything and everything for family. While this is true, my family hasn’t done the same for me. Regardless, I don’t have the energy to put a fake face on and pretend today. She’s like it’s not about you. It’s about her (my cousin). Just suck it up and deal with it. Most days I can. Today I can’t. I tried to explain it to her and she just don’t get it. Like why should I sacrifice my sanity for a cousin who I’m not even close to? I went to her wedding, I always talk to her at family gatherings. I’m just not comfortable going. She says I’m letting my anxiety win. No. Me going somewhere I’m not comfortable with to save face and maintain an image within the family is letting anxiety win. I’m not putting myself in that position, family or not.

@thatcaseygrl nah. you know what you can & can’t handle. it’s your job to protect you. don’t feel guilty for protecting your mental health

Running Wild with @machinegunkelly coming tuesday may 5th on fox and next day on hulu

I’ll fix yours if you fix mine 👀🔥

@machinegunkelly @lifeofastarman I trust you, papa gun. Can’t wait. See you in Indy 6/20 😘

@lifeofastarman summer lost Americana tour is gonna be epic trust

this but shirtless and with oil, please. thanks.

Your hands look quite full. Let me help you with that.

@gianna_marie88 @machinegunkelly You’re going to the Indy show?! Me too!!!!

May 5 will be one year since I’ve had my intestines removed. Mgk’s music is what got me through my long hospital stays. So me dancing and wanting to rock the stage on 6/20 with my fav artist…. Ya that’s on some real shit. Not for attention but for happiness @machinegunkelly

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7.3.22 mainstream sellout tour 🤘🏻🫶🏻

you can fix mine with a pearl necklace

"There's always music in the garden, but sometimes our hearts need to be quiet enough to hear it” Running Wild with @machinegunkelly coming tuesday may 5th on fox and next day on hulu

Happy derby day to those who celebrate! 📸 edit by colsons_hands on ig

Let’s not forget @machinegunkelly ‘s OG nu metal track. Wait… would this be considered nu metal?

fix my face please

oh he totally saw our trend #fixurface 🖤

YOU TELL ME YOU HATE MAY, BABY YEAH I BET YOU DO

Respectfully, this video is the standard of A MAN ✨✨