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⠀ daniel; the writer, poet, death. the abyss that looks back at you. the pain you long to feel— (heal). ⠀

@bloodcellar you're the pro at taking here, ren.

Well, he didn’t take that well.

@bloodcellar make sure you clean it first after taking it out of yours.

@themfchase Yeah, a buttplug tail to put it up your ass, Daniel.

Should I put puppy ears or kitty ears on .

@deliriumtrap you and your opps bonding.

@themfchase Add me.

making a "everyone hates yurei" groupchat.

@glidedpastels welcome to the club.

i don’t think i enjoy being mutuals with yurei.

if this were broken glass, there would be a stretch to my lips, pleased at the sight of it piercing my skin, because the blood isn't a bother, it's art in your eyes. something to whisper when the chatter gets too loud around us, as if saying "good job" for bleeding. for bleeding.

so when you ask me why i reduce myself to this, there are not enough words created by mankind to describe why. it will always be a sequence of things, an overwhelming flood inside my chest, too much to contain. too much to explain. ineffable. and every day i pray i drown in it.

but then there's a crease at the edge of her smile that i want to kiss, and a tint to her cheeks that reminds me of a time when i was steady and i need to stay longer, i need to grip a little tighter, let her watch the tick in my jaw and tell me to unclench my teeth.

it's a sequence of things, you know? a single strand of hair that goes stray, forcing my eyes to follow as a last attempt at avoiding those eyes. not because i'm scared (i am scared), but because i need something else to focus on without having to hold my breath.

@bloodcellar @deliriumtrap you could have switched back and i wouldn't have even remembered, bro.

@themfchase @deliriumtrap You dared me to be Jungkook for a day, wdym?!

@bloodcellar @deliriumtrap the fuck did i do?

@deliriumtrap This is all Daniel’s fault. He will pay for this.

@deliriumtrap oh no, mr officer, don't cuff me.

@themfchase This one right here, officer.

Look behind you.

@deliriumtrap fuck the law.

@themfchase The contract was legally binding.

@deliriumtrap i'm canceling my subscription to this friendship.

@themfchase 🖕 one.

and when your exhale meets mine, maybe you will think too highly of me, think my fingertips can do no harm, leave no evidence, scar no skin, or soul with this hunger, and i'd call it a shame... if i had any.

to go blank behind the lids and soil anything holy in your name. i can strip myself of the rage, the war, the carnage to become something much more pitiful if it means your gaze never strays, if this worship makes you mine for a little longer.

have you ever seen a god lose his grace, palms up and prayer on his lips? ever watch divinity taint itself for the sake of devotion, hunch his back for a shuddering thread of fingertips through his hair? i can be the first to have my lips on your ankle, chant against your skin.