Stella

walks make me so happy :-)

don't perceive me omfgomfg! I don't want a celebrity lookalike with my face but 10x thinner I don't want attention I'm exhausted of constantly feeling the need to be pretty Just please just let me fucking exist like a man can like a fully fleshed human fucking. Being. Ok whatever

bye again ily all you deserve the world i can’t be here for now it’s not good for me 🩷 i’ll be back when i hit a milestone or accomplish something of the sorts

this is the best I’ve done in SO long & then on Wednesday doom & despair hit me like 27 trucks but I need to remind my perfectionistic self that it’s a SLIP & it doesn’t have to turn into a slide & I am not a failure I just slipped okay!!! (ty jeanette mccurdy)

@swagatron02 all i want to be seen how i feel

i wish i was skinny enough that people would view me as fragile

@zmbiecvts this is so dumb it’s funny

ummm 😭 ?????

@schiz04renic yes

would YOU date YOU ??

@d0llymars usually I’ve put it in a smoothie with strawberries & sometimes other fruits too :) or banana

@twttbh one do you combine it with?! i haven’t tried yet!

i actually love pb2

@Cortsia run or stairmaster & whatever machines my friends do if i’m with friends if alone just cardio then some abs & stretching

What’s everyone’s gym routine

@cifer1738 i’m 20 lmk

Is 21 a good age to give up

@rottenskelly yes same & i have loose skin there too

idk if anyone else struggles w this but i hate my upper arm fat so bad it genuinely makes me tweak out

@freyasburner the things that have worked for me is making a change in my life like going on a trip or moving from home/my apartment or getting really into the gym or being in love or just willing myself to lock tf in

@starcaal second one it would be super unfortunate that it has to be during the year when I’m gonna turn 21 & it would make me extremely suicidal since my hw was bmi 27.4 but worth it in the end i guess 😔

Edtwt would u rather by stuck at ur lw for 6 months or be at ur hw for a year but after be at ur gw for life

@nyucalz ya this & love

@girl15050102 thicker thin

i think i’m going to read the bell jar. i’ve tried before a couple times but i’ve never felt ready, or in the right mood for it. i think i’m ready now. it’s in my room at home, home home, not my apartment home. i’ll read it over break.

@psycmuse ofc i mean it :-) :)

@twttbh thank you for telling me that lovely <3

ok ok i find a reason i was lost now im back

sometimes I feel so connected? (for lack of a better word) to people in my college I don’t even know well just because of things I know about them from other people & I wonder if anyone feels like that about me

like a month ago I had to tell one of my friends I “was bulimic when I was younger” (a stretch but technically not a lie LOL) for context to this situation I was in last yr (wanted her to know the ACTUAL truth) but now I feel like there’s this emotional wall around me & I h8 it