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hyperfixating on the deprive hoodie cause deprive is actually such a strong word. like why don't i just think of work as deprivation and build meaning from the pain like a simpleton

bro as long as we're getting money none of this matters just work holy shit

my consciousness should get fed more content about the mind and ego because i'm starting to forget

gotta slowly gaslight yourself until activation follows

if you focus your mind on something for 17 seconds your body is going to start acting. well, not really, but the strength is in the belief and repetition slowly refines it until it's instantaneous and subconscious

so i'll think

if i started tracking my twitter screen time then i would see the bigger issue, no, then the bigger issue would be tracking my irl livetime, but to get there, the bigger issue is fixing my consciousness, the bigger issue to get there is staying grounded in reality, the bigger

Therapy as a Neurodivergent person is insane cause ive prepared a 10 page thesis on the intellectual roots of my feelings just for my therapist to ask "where do you feel it in your body??"

basically i think i should start doing more work on psychedelics. but like, actual work. with work-earned money

ohh this is the real issue to investigate, not the fluff i was shitting out earlier

nope it’s a dead end

fuck i need money okay time to lock in

i don’t want a job, i need more leverage

@murkruws merulox coo

@uu222942 Merulox cool

merulox? oh he is a little bit weird. have you looked at his twitter?

@jaime_nf i have someone in my followings who did this recently but i don’t know who it was or if i follow you on there no why would i

when you guys stalk a profile do you also scroll down first so you can follow their progression in chronological order

i’m matrixing myself to avoid work

“feelings of being left behind” imagine letting such a meaningless thought grab your attention

do i write like a 13 year old white girl am i that behind