Vik R. Cain 🪐

on a break from studying. figuring out what i’m doing with my life now. mostly thoughts, vents, and whatever i don’t want rotting in my brain. share your thoughts here. or don’t? do whatever you want, i guess? idk man, i’m still figuring social media out. viklog.straw.page

@Alex11631482116 ha. wish it was.

@vikilog_ This waist of yours is for men to grab!

jeho ruce jsou v porovnání s mým tělem tak velké, až vedle něj vypadám směšně... jestli mi ještě jednou položí ruce na pas, nevím, co s ním udělám. nebo se sebou.

@explicitsoybean @stickerfox this was supposed to be a fun little trip to disconnect from my current life. not to get myself into more emotional distress. that’s it. too many things in my brain right now. i have to order my priorities.

@vikilog_ @stickerfox I won’t press you to think on making it work more right now, but can I ask why you say that?

@explicitsoybean @stickerfox it’s just... too much to think about. i can’t. i just— i can’t.

@vikilog_ @stickerfox Just because you’re leaving doesn’t mean you can’t make things work. Love means choosing someone over and over again. Relationships take work, take choosing someone over and over again. Are you willing to put in that work?

@Ivemadeamisstak ...i’ll let it slide because you seem kind.

@vikilog_ What if you "get a grip on yourself" in your room? (I only joke of course <3 Unless you actually need to 👍) (feel free to hit me with your cane for such a comment, i know it's deserved)

jesus, Viktor, get a grip...

@explicitsoybean @stickerfox because i’m leaving! i already have a bad enough time knowing i’ll leave in three weeks and won’t know when i’ll be seeing him again! it *is* absurd to pretend that what i’m feeling is anything more than a silly crush. i prefer to not let myself sink further down into this mess.

@vikilog_ @stickerfox Many people’s lovers are also their best friends. Why limit yourself to one when there’s potential for both?

@explicitsoybean @stickerfox do not get it twisted, i am not wasting time. i am enjoying his company, and his friendship, and my time here. i am just being realistic and down to earth. i swear it is quite fine.

@vikilog_ @stickerfox Viktor. You like him. Like a lot. Is it not worth at least seeing where this could go? It just feels so silly to be stubborn and waste precious time?

@man_holt37594 no comment.

@vikilog_ I think you definitely at least fantasized about the former.

@stickerfox god forbid a man vents in his silly twitter account.

@vikilog_ it sure seems like you do since you're posting about it

jeho prsty jsou plné mozolů. a jsou fakt silné. bože. přemýšlím, jaké by to bylo, kdyby byly ve mně…

@man_holt37594 ...on myself. i was talking to myself.

@vikilog_ Do you wanna get a grip on him? Or are you trying to get a grip on yourself?

@stickerfox i barely have three weeks left here, so even if i tried to convince myself that something could happen i just... no. it is absurd. i think i am just bored and overexcited and touched-starved. it will be okay.

@vikilog_ if you do not allow yourself to think it's possible nothing is going to happen viktor.

@Ivemadeamisstak už vím...

@vikilog_ Možná je to ten typ myšlenek, kterým by ses teď měl vyhýbat...

@man_holt37594 huh?

@vikilog_ On him? Or you?

@stickerfox i do not want to talk about it...

@vikilog_ the gender fluid is really getting to you damn

@stickerfox he was trying to be helpful. that is all.

@vikilog_ if you truly and honestly think he's not grabbing you on purpose idk what to tell you man. yes, he was giving you a massage but lets be serious ☺️

@explicitsoybean @Alex11631482116 alright, well, i can admit when i am in the wrong.

@vikilog_ @Alex11631482116 now you can behave and let him help you when you need it 😇 stop being stubborn!

...most humbling experience of my life.

@Ivemadeamisstak i guess it is, yes. it was just unexpected, that is all...

@vikilog_ It is good to let out the tension. And I'm pretty sure letting out some "natural vocal reactions" if quite normal for many people when getting a good massage

on the other hand, i feel positively less tense. Jayce wasn’t lying when he said he was good at massages. he didn’t seem bothered by my, eh... my natural vocal reactions, either. quite the opposite. said it was natural to let the tension out. ...anyway.

@Alex11631482116 where did this even come from oh my god.

@vikilog_ So now you're gonna be a good boy for jayce?