𝒀𝑶𝑳𝑨

@providentieI luluh. “belum, aku ingin pizza.” luluh betulan bila si adam yang ia cinta semanis ini. “𝙝𝙪𝙣, can you order it? coba pesankan yang ku suka,” kali ini nadanya sedikit menantang.

pukul lengan @providentieI dengan sebal sembari mendengus.

@providentieI sebuah kekeh kecil keluar dari belah bibir manisnya, “pujian seperti apa yang ingin kamu dengar, 𝙟𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙣𝙠𝙪? yang selalu 𝙡𝙪𝙘𝙪 dan 𝙩𝙖𝙢𝙥𝙖𝙣 untukku, 𝙢𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙡𝙚 𝙗𝙤𝙤.”

@providentieI cubit.

i felt it the very moment i realized how happy i was to hear you, to see you, how much i cared about you. the spark ignited inside me.

i can endure it forever, of course. for all of eternity if i have to. i can do it because i'm me.

you're still a foolish and devoted dog.

nothing i do is ever good enough.

i envy my old self.

you better kill me soon, because it's the only way you'll be able to keep me away.

if i were to die now, i would only be a weapon. i believe... i should die as a human.

my wish... is for you to go on existing. that's all i want.

i thought this time was different. why did i think he'd be different?

i wanted to despise you, but my heart wouldn’t let you go.