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i keep thinking about how jaemin has always been such an advocate for self-care (number 0 should always be yourself<3) and i think the reason he stayed strong and held back tears this night wasn't just for us but actually so mark wouldn't feel guilty about choosing himself 😭

these two pics of jaemin quietly watching his hyung and maknae cry just broke something inside me

@_Nono_Yesyes and to think this is the same mindset he would have had be having when he receive the news😭

This video always sends me. Mr. I love role play immediately getting into it, energetically making up several scenarios, Mr. Self-care taking the question seriously and dishing out life advice, and Mr. Sensitive actively listening in the back 😭😭😭

💔how did I not notice

260404 #HAECHAN #해찬 instagram live 🐻: i think I’ve been spending my time thinking about what’s next. i have been resting, but I’ve also been taking vocal lessons, and i have been preparing for the next album comeback.. just constantly thinking about the future. because of that, i figured you might be worried, so i thought it’d be better to come and talk to you face-to-face like this. i also wanted to share some of my thoughts and feelings. first of all, thank you so much to everyone who’s been worried about me. it's been really been over 10 years, right? if i am being exact, since i was 14… it’s been more than 13 years now. so yeah, it’s been 13 years. during those 13 years with mark hyung, i relied on him so much. i learned so much from him. whenever i was shaken, he held me together. honestly, other than during concerts, i have almost never seen him cry but there were times he called me while crying. to me, he was more than just a member… he was truly like a real older brother. in his family, he’s the youngest, and I’m the oldest in mine, but to me, he was my hyung. really. more than any other “hyung,” he felt like a real one to me. so after spending 13 years together, i depended on him a lot. i think that’s why many of you are even more worried, because you know that too. thank you so, so much. as soon as the article came out, i sent Mark hyung a long message. i told him: everyone knows how hard he worked while living as part of nct. all of that will surely become meaningful steps on the path he’s going to walk. and at the same time, everything he’s done in nct will also become good steps for nct's future path. so i told him to work hard in a way that he won’t regret the choice he made. now that i am the only one doing two teams, of course i feel sad and worried too. but all the things i built up while working with him… how should i even describe it? the energy and strength I gained from being with him are still with me. so now, i have become someone who can walk forward even without him. of course, even if he hadn’t been there from the start, i might have still made it this far… but i don’t think that path would have been easy alone. still, because he was there, he gave me comfort, strength, and support. an all of that has built up into the strength that allows me to keep going now. that is something ireally wanted to tell all of you, that you don’t have to worry too much. mark hyung wasn’t my only pillar of support. i have the other members too, and i have czennies who support me. so i am not scared. i am not worried. i don’t know yet what choices or decisions i will make in the future, but no matter what, the 10 years i have walked and the many people who’ve been by my side will continue to be with me. so i am not afraid. and when it comes to Mark hyung’s decision… i know his personality well. i know he must have thought about it deeply. he probably went through a lot of stress and pain while making that choice. of course, we can’t say whether that decision was right or wrong… but i do feel a bit regretful about the way it was delivered to you all. i knew about it at the time too… but honestly, there was nothing the members could do. it was such a helpless moment, we really couldn’t do anything except feel frustrated and cry. that part is still really frustrating. but still, thank you all so much. and going forward… i hope you’ll continue to stay with us like you are now.

this era just hit different, my SMRookies buddy ♡

7dream last dream team performance & its dreamies singing to mark "now's the time let's go! take your dream higher, to the sky" & mk reaching out to his babies one last time.. im gonna cry 😭

may he get to see the world at his own pace now finding little moments of peace, appreciating and collecting sky pics… and maybe one day when he’s ready he’ll share them with us again. until then, i’ll just keep looking up wishing he’s doing okay 🤍

The final TDS concert with 7 members😔😭💔

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@neotfy i woke up to the newss!! it was the first thing i saw and its posted 28mins ago 💔

what were yall doing when they announced mark’s departure from nct

When I 1st saw this it was saw heartbreaking. And you can see how he was trying so hard to not cry while looking at the screen showing all his hyungs...them as 7. And I can only imagine the thoughts in his head at that moment. I hope you are okay, Jisung.

their last group hug on stage as 7Dream 💔

this photo

knowing jisung loves his group more than anything….

this is just so pure so sweet friendship

@nhyucklvr bestie sameee.. i was literally writing those feelings on my note 😭😭

you know why it hurts so much? because the dreamies always felt like childhood friends we grew up with, the ones we did everything with. and now it feels like we woke up and realize we aren’t kids anymore. one by one, we’re going to live our own separate lives.

it feels so refreshing seeing someone leave a group with all the members hyping him and supporting him fully, you just know that the relationship they built is genuine & deep enough, even the parting is amicable.

This account has literally witnessed everything from luhan leaving exo to mark lee not renewing his contract with nct. Just send me to the psych ward or just put me on life support.