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@Wyndreya She’s precious! The little outfit suits her perfectly

I bought a new outfit for Cookie! Isn't she the cutest?! ✨️ For those who don't know, Cookie is my 6 year old Maltese. She's been with me ever since she was a puppy! My parents got her for me as a comfort pet, and she performs the task quite well~ hehe 🤍

@maotheslime Hai

I want more girl friends 🥲 Not because there is something wrong with having guy friends, but because most of my friends are guys.. Girls where are youuuuuuuuuu 🗣️

@RainyRentyn Thank you for sharing this. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through so much loneliness but I’m glad you’ve found a community through streaming. Wishing you more genuine friendships and happiness ahead. 🫂

Spending a whole day out of the house yesterday was so fun and stress relieving, but it did make me realize how especially lonely the last few years of my life have been. Very few IRL friends to hang out with. I only ever see people at things like twitch con or Offkai for the most part. I suffer from chronic loneliness, not by choice or without actively trying to change it. It's just something I have always had, and I think that comes from how I grew up. Throughout my whole life, the internet has been the one true constant for me when it came to relationships of any type. Between kindergarten to high school I attended 7 different schools. We were moving often so I never had chances to actually connect with other kids for more that what felt like a few months. Even after I would leave a school, I wasn't allowed to have a myspace (which was mostly where everyone hung out online at the time) so that meant no one would really keep in contact with me after I no longer saw them on the daily at school. It didn't help too that most of the times when we were moving it was like half way through a school year. I often had to deal with bullies and isolation from being "the new kid." College was a bit better but the school I went to was so rigorgious that I didn't have time to make a lot of friends, let alone spend time with them outside of sometimes doing school work together. there were groups of friends but I didn't have one. I kinda just had myself, even trying to become closer with people, I never was adopted into a friend circle. So in terms or IRL friendships, I had to deal with being on my own. The pandemic then made it even more clear how often I thought about the people I considered friends vs how little they thought of me. It's why I started streaming. Some way to find genuine connection and to make spaces where other people could find something similar. Plus, most of my long term friendships were made within online spaces like GaiaOnline, DeviantART, Mabinogi, and IScribble. So I knew that true friendships could be formed in online spaced and that's still been my focus. However, the last 5 years, since having to move to California, have been the most lonely; not just because of my lack of IRL friendships and no family members close, it's always because being a content creator can be an incredibly lonely career field. ✦ I've had people get close to me in order to get close to people I know or to get access to my audience. ✦ I've had people stop talking to me because my numbers weren't high enough for them ✦ I've been ignored by people who told me we were friends but only interacts with me in public spaces and never in private ✦ I've gotten close to people thinking I've made a genuine friend, just to hear from others that they have been talking ill of me to others ✦ I've been rejected from most opportunities that would have involved an easier way to meet people who do the same things I do ✦ Social media in general makes such a huge space of people feel isolating... It makes it very difficult to get close to others. Especially cause I don't have any IRL ways to make friends so the only interaction I have is online. But even then, sometimes I still feel just as lonely cause I can't always be certain people aren't just using me or getting ready to ditch me the second someone else comes along. ✦ I have been trying to spend more time off social media to help ✦ I'm excited to see friends during Offkai which is in just a couple months ✦ I let go of some people I thought were my friends in favor of people who actually treat me well ✦ I finally started my creator team etc! And most of all, Streaming! ✨ Streaming has saved me more than I can ever explain. It is one of the true times were I never feel lonely. I have been told that my streams and events have brought people together and I'm so grateful for that. 💕 I may not be able to ever fully get rid of my chronic loneliness, but I do try to overcome it even in little ways! Just know, I get what it's like to have crippling loneliness and even if it's hard to deal with there are ways to lessen that feeling! 🫂

@kuromiyalucien stardw vally

Name a game without the letter 'E' in it!

@MissFushiGaming @Jarzardart Happy Birthday!

I am now 36 years old. (Human years) Thank you for all the lovely birthday wishes. I feel happy to have another spin around the sun. Another year of growth and love. I cannot wait to see what this next one holds. Beautiful artwork by my friend @Jarzardart. Thank you honey!

@tulipdollVT Hiking really humbles you fast lol. Good luck on your summer hiking goals

i went hiking for the first time and i realized how out of shape i am ;; LMAOOO my goal this summer is to hike more!! 💪💪

@AscensiaVT The short hair looks so cute on you! 💕 If you’re loving it that’s all the convincing you need.

Debating on dying my hair today~ I chopped it all off recently and I'm loving it short 🥺🩷

@Sugary_Dolly So cool and pretty

Recent skeb custom me did :3c

@LudmilaVT_ I agree. People only see the stream and not all the work behind it. I really admire your dedication and hard work.

I feel like people don't really understand how much I do... Its so much more than going live and choosing games...

@LunaMoonieVT That’s an amazing milestone. Congrats on 25k subscribers and all the success you’ve earned!

Crazy 🥹🫶🏻 thank you for your support on YouTube so far!!! ✨💖 More is coming! I promise!

@BedeeliaVT She looks so cozy and charming! Congrats on the new look and Happy 🎂.

「 ⋆⊹˚₊VTuber Model Reveal ₊˚⊹⋆ 」 ㅤ 𝓼𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓲𝓼 𝓯𝓲𝓷𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓪𝔀𝓪𝓴𝓮...✨ one year of memories ♡ a brand new look ♡ one sleepy little bedbug ♡ 📅June 10th + 1 Year Anniversary Stream! Thank you for waking me up ⋆˚࿔ #ModelReveal | #VTuber | #VtuberDebut

@Crystalblu42 Happy Birthday! 🎂

Today's the day. I'm 34. God...halfway to 40. Divorced once. Working from home full time. Vtubing on the side. Playing lots of games with great friends... Life is pretty good. 🩵

@RiiKami Wanting those connections and reflecting on your own shortcomings doesn’t make you unpleasant to be around. It makes you human. Wishing the best for you.

I suck at socializing. Not in the quirky vtuber way. I feel like in the midst of being around others I slowly start lacking consideration. I can sit here and blame past experiences but I just feel so unpleasant to be around im sure some may have nice things to say but I havent had like real growth in friendships since like 2024 Mean while, ill have reasons lined up for why things are the way they are. Maybe 2023-2024 me was a better version of myself. Im not looking for sympathy but I just feel as if ive changed with how I view things and what my brain chemistry wants and doesnt want. I dont want excuses for myself and for those who try or are able to talk to me or experience me, I dont want to be someone like that, I have such a strong "want" to have these connections, but I feel as if im lacking in such crucial areas to be able to have them.

@MokuzaiVTubuh MLP: FIM

💚 what's a childhood show you still think is peak? 💚

@Wantedsiren The tiny chibi at the bottom is absolutely adorable. All of them are!

isn't this so cute, me in all my current + former forms💖

@AriaAltairVT I've been in bed behaving perfectly... mostly.

I've been on break for a little bit . . . be honest, have you all been behaving yourselves while I was away? 👀 I'll be back to streaming on the 2nd!! I miss you all so much 💕

@Yuki_P00kie A big circle full of amazing people is always a win!!

My circle has gotten so much bigger with all these new faces 🤍

So excited to announce that I’ve officially been accepted into the @Twitch Women’s Guild 💜 This is such an incredible honor and I’m beyond grateful for the opportunity to be part of a space that uplifts and empowers women creators 😭

@Kyampo_ Happy birthday!!

Happy birthday to me! 🤭🩷💐