Ike baby💓

"We do what we have to do in order to do what we want to do."-James Farmer Jr

Thank You God For Keeping Things Running Smoothly

Thank God for a beautiful day.

@temtoyourscreen Working?

Literally did not sleep ALL NIGHT 😂😂😂😂

it’s 12am and i’m just sitting here. two years ago i was a different person. i had a 9-5 job. i wasn’t happy. but i wasn’t unhappy either. i was just… there. existing. collecting a paycheck. going out on weekends. 23 years old and completely free in the way that people are free when nothing really matters yet. i didn’t know God but i knew the idea of him the way most people do. sunday mornings and christmas and “God bless you” after a sneeze. surface level. enough to feel safe but not enough to feel changed. then one random tuesday morning on my way to work, something happened. i got a nudge. little and persistent. like a tap on the shoulder from someone standing just behind you. leave. i ignored it. because that’s what sane people do when a feeling tells them to quit their job and pursue purpose with no plan. i went to work. did my tasks. came home. watched something on my phone until i fell asleep. but it didn’t leave. it came back the next day. and the day after. for three months it sat with me at my desk, rode the bus with me, waited for me in the silence before sleep. i knew what it was. i just didn’t want to answer it. because answering it meant giving something up. and giving things up is terrifying when the thing you’re chasing doesn’t come with a salary slip. i thought about jonah a lot during those months. not the whale part. just the running part. the part where you know exactly what you’re supposed to do and you choose a different direction anyway because the real direction scares you. eventually i stopped running. i typed the resignation letter. stared at it for twenty minutes. sent it. and then everything got worse. no one told me that obedience doesn’t always feel like relief right away. sometimes it just feels like you made a terrible mistake. the money stopped. the structure stopped. the easy smalltalk with coworkers stopped. and without all of that noise, i was just left with myself, and myself was not in a good place. the depression came in slow. then all at once. the kind where you’re not crying every day, you’re just hollow. where you’re working but nothing feels like it’s working. where you believe in what you’re doing but the gap between where you are and where you need to be feels so wide you can’t even see the other side. that’s when i found God. not because things got better. because they didn’t, not immediately. but because when you strip everything away, the job, the income, the comfortable numbness of routine, and you’re just a person alone at 12am with nothing to show for a leap of faith, the only place left to turn is up. and something met me there. i’m living in purpose now. last year my boss/artist said something to me out of nowhere. he called and said “you’re enjoying your life.” i chuckled. i said no. he looked confused. he said why. i said i’m not where i want to be yet. he was quiet for a second. then he said something i wasn’t ready for. “you are perfectly where God wants you to be at this time. you have goals, yes. but you are in alignment with God. so embrace the moment.” i didn’t say anything after that. i just let it sit. because sometimes God doesn’t send you a sign in the sky. sometimes he sends it through a conversation you weren’t even trying to have, on a regular day, through someone who had no idea how much you needed to hear exactly that. i’m full time now. doing what i love. creative work, all of it. and i’m earning more than that 9-5 ever paid me. definitely not because i’m special. but because i said yes when everything in me wanted to say no, and i kept showing up even when it was dark. i have a community now. amazing people who found me and chose to stay. people who show up every time. people who remind me on the days i forget that what i’m building actually means something to someone. and i have God. who never left. let’s do this Jay.

My biggest prayer point right now is clarity. I need clarity. I need to know what to do and how to do it.

literally almost crashed out today thinking about it . it’s lonely . don’t even give me that “find happiness in yourself and blah blah blah” .i need my own person ,i’ve found happiness in myself ,i want to find it in another person and they find theirs in me 😔

True currency is steadfast friendship

@Breadiscool_ Why did they do that!? Where is the link?

@janettalkss I just noticed I always have a running stomach whenever I eat noodles.

Earlier this year, one time I ate noodles, it triggered my ulcer the next day. Since that day? Stayed away

@Laura4wookie Oh my dear Laura don't know ball💔

@zanieike Why are you eating ofe Nsala?

White soup- an absolute trash that should never be in existence

You people shouldn't laugh at my dear Modella. I like the monologue 😁

@Laura4wookie No but why would you say white soup is trash?🤔

@zanieike Can you fight ?

@Santandave1 @terex444 What's up Dave? How are you?

hello

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He knows how to play chess but he is naive 💔

God please let me find my own person 🙏🏽

Spurs might actually get relegated. This is serious now.

I get her point but she shouldn't have made that tweet.

I am tired of drawing polygons. I hate this job.