ZippyVtuber 🔞

Recently, more and more people have been finding me, and a lot of you have such sweet ideas about me, but the truth is, I’m really, really shy, and I don’t have much confidence at all. I cry very easily, and I’m not a positive person like people might think. Sometimes when I say that, people reply with things like, “No way, Peo? That can’t be true,” but it really is true. Whenever I start a stream, stand in front of everyone, or make a post for you all, I always get so nervous and scared, and I keep thinking about whether I might hurt someone, or get hurt myself. When I read a comment that made my chest hurt, I just closed my eyes and stopped. I felt like I wanted to disappear. The reason I want to be here, the one precious feeling I had in my heart, the fact that I tried to talk about it seriously, the kinds of jokes I just can’t really accept, and then the way it felt like everything got covered up with “it was just a joke”... it all hurt too much, and I couldn’t keep going anymore. I’m not very good with jokes in the first place, but what I want to say is not really that I want to ask something from everyone. I just hope we can keep thinking together about what kind of jokes are really fun for everyone. Not jokes that might only be fun for one person, but jokes that don’t hurt somebody else. Being able to properly say sorry when someone gets hurt, and having the heart to say, “It’s okay.” I want this community to be like that, and I want to be like that too. Our cultures, our languages, and the places we live are all different, and even so, we still get to spend so much time together every day. I feel so strongly how precious that is, and how much of a miracle it is. I don’t want to lose something like that, and I don’t want to break it. That’s why I want us to keep spending time together with kindness and forgiveness. Maybe I’m just more scared than anyone else, and I have less confidence than anyone else, and maybe I’m just someone who breaks very easily. But even so, I love you all so much, and I still want to be with you. I want to come back again and again, no matter how many times. I want this to be a warm home, a place where nobody hurts anyone and nobody gets hurt, and I want to keep trying harder and harder so I can help make it that kind of place too. This isn’t me trying to make requests of everyone. More than that, I just want us to become that kind of place together. I know I still need to try much, much harder too. To make my heart stronger, to build the confidence to feel like things will be okay, and to make a big effort not to fall apart every time I feel sad that I couldn’t express my words and feelings well enough. I’m sorry for being weak. But I still want to be with you all. I want to look forward again and keep doing my best. Love you all ♡°

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