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unpinning at 140lbs ·ˈ∗ ♡

ended up in no contact with my first love since back in august……….. declared to never show love to anyone ever again ever and then ended up with a boyfriend in october………….. that is all

crazy unexplainable things have happened in my life since the last time i was on here

LOLLLLLL he’s crossed over the friend boundary a handful of times since this tweet but still can’t figure himself out and it’s clear he has unresolved feelings

coming back on this account out of nowhere to say i lost nearly 10lbs the past week bc of a man

my body refuses to go below 145 WHAT IS IT HOLDING ON TO

why have i maintained for 2 weeks what is wrong with me

need the whole foods only or nothing at all fixation to come back

i look so bloated and gross. i’m going to a concert this weekend and then another concert and a wedding the weekend after that. i need to look skinyyyyyyyy

even tho i’ve been eating within my limit i think i’ve had too many processed foods recently and it’s showing

i won’t go back to him until i’m better

like yes i want my dream body too but i can’t hide my body, it will be seen no matter what and so i’ve accepted that… but my skin i can sorta hide with makeup; i don’t have to show my bare face so i’ve never made myself accept it

i want clear skin sooooo bad god it’s holding back my relationships so much bc i don’t want ppl to see the “real me”

must turn this fat into muscle

i wish i lived by the water

had such a good day today and tomorrow will be too

my favorite bone is my right collarbone

my cortisol levels have got to be through the fucking roof rn… literally this entire past month actually i haven’t felt this stressed and confused in forever

and no bm is sooooo long

my entire body is so bloated i don’t even wanna look at myself

20k easy