jyushi of shedtwt ★

appointment in 3 minutes and im so nervous i feel sick

i survived a caretaker who hadn't met me did the tests and didn't ask about the scars Yay but this is the last time i can cut on my arms i think ueuueeee i guess i gotta move onto my thighs (SCARY)

no its every month Ok

omg they do physical inspections or whatever theyre called every week im so cooked. idc about being weighed but IF I HAVE TO PULL MY SLEEVES UP TO GET MY PULSE CHECKED AND THEY SEE MY NEW SCARS💀💀

i have to let go. i have to be myself and go back to being a useless unlikeable child so they can really see whats wrong with me

tomorrow my therapy plan finally starts im so scared hahahahha my anxiety i hate talking to people i hate telling the caretakers anything but i cant stop masking to embarrass myself as little as possible kms😂

when blood almost goes through my bandages 🤤🤤🤤

SELFCEST‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥

sometimes i wish i had more male friends but then a male friend texts me and i wish they'd stop

didnt exactly lose but also didnt gain. HOORAY

my allergies.. no.... my eyes r itching and nose is running like hell

@quzooi AHH OKIEE AND TY >.<

@asmorphiaa AHHHH I DID THIS EARLIER BUT CUTE CHARACTERRRR

a character i like + 5 moots to do the same except IM SCARED TO TAG PEOPEL im so her ueueueu @honamish3art @toulpyy @quzooi

@honamish3art WHAT THE HELL THIS IS SO FIRE

Im a lazy fuck i camt motivate myself to render ❓😢 jiffy how the fuck do you do that im amazed

@honamish3art YAYAYAY

@asmorphiaa @toulpyy @quzooi FUCK YESS I LOVE WHEN I GET TAGGED AND I LOVE RICE SHOWER

nvm that's my default depth lol awesome i genuinely thought i was a loser who couldn't get past baby car scratches😭😭

bruh i need a sh depth guide cuz i cant tell if i just hit styro for the first time or if i've been doing that all the time already

i am home for easter so i can cut... erm i might be addicted but i like it istg if they check my arms when i return tomorrow and make me write a behavior analysis i'll be maaad i know exactly what im soing and i dont care

hello #shtwt i like to paint

aww i love my baby styros aww that shit is not deep enough for me to feel like i deserve to exist. gonna try again next week