𝐋.𝐑𝐎𝐙𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐕.
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i'm restless and harsh and despairing. although i do have love inside me. i just don't know how to use love. sometimes it tears at my flesh, like barbs.

presses a short kiss to the palm of his hand ( not something he does often, but there are rare exceptions ) releases it slowly and withdraws, leaning back. “... an old impulse. sorry.”

you know you know you know , great . now go away —— I did it , without you or mom , I don't need you . go away . 〔 he's not looking at his brother , he's even turning away completely from the other . 〕

I've learned not to be difficult . 〔 sad eyes meeting the other . cigarette now abandoned between his fingers . 〕 she was my mum , too , you know . she and you were the only person I ever loved me and you abandoned me both . 〔 he's throwing the cigarette to the ground , gritting it teeth . 〕 Alexei hated me so much . I could have needed you . but you weren't there .

you tricked me . / tricked you ? no , i saved you .

why was he even sharing all of this with this guy .ᐣ shit . he's way too charismatic . ❝ is this an interrogation .ᐣ ❞


— through the area. “Good morning. You are not Ilya.” @ICEDFOCUS

the immediate warmth upon the nape of his neck makes him feel SICK . how embarrassing . ❝ I'm trying to find a new placement . ❞

❝ I can only move on , right .ᐣ dwelling on it just really pisses me off . ❞

his shoulders slumped softly before being forced back to straighten his back and stand tall . ❝ I got over it . ❞

❛ yes, of course. i've heard a little. ❜ he responds. ❛ so are you like a rock star .ᐣ ❜

❛ oh–– that's cool. what kind of music do you make .ᐣ ❜ he was curious.

that's good. ... watches. ever so slightly concerned.






