celeste 🐇

.⋆♱ #edtwt intro ⛧°.⋆ ✮ 20 | lesbian ☣︎ she/they | -18 DNI ​✟ ana ⋆˚₊ new to edtwt been on tumblr for five years ✮ bmi 16.5 | sw 58 cw 47 gw 45 ​​✟ relapsed after a year of recovery, I'm not fatphobic/shameful/toxic but dc if you are #starving #ana #wl

#edtwt would you survive the celeste diet?

“how did you loose that much weight that fast!?”

ps the apple in the second pic is sliced in the last with cinnamon on top and the drink is homemade chai latte :3 treated myself with a biscoff because I loooove cinnamon sm

#wieiad so far: 973cals + a biscoff biscuit I didn't take a picture of. Trying to maintain my weight and to stop starving myself, I'm aware this is nowhere near perfect and I burned 300+ cals at the gym today but at least I'm eating

if i went on tiktok and said “depression is so fucking embarrassing, you guys are gross, you don’t shower, you don’t brush your teeth, grow up.” evb would be attacking me, so why can people say that about the most fatal disorder and have everyone agree ?? you did not have an ed..

update I felt full for ten minutes and now I can start feeling hungry again.. the polyphagia isn't gone 💔

534cal vegan breakfast to try and start maintaining my weight, it was so scary for me to eat so much and feel almost full, the chocolate was the hardest part, I enjoyed the pancakes the most! #edtwt #wieiad heading to the gym in an hour yay

the thing is, I feel like if I don't reach a certain bmi it means that I wasnt sick enough so idk what to do, do I stop or do I keep going?

eds aren’t just disgusting, they’re deadly. ppl seem to forget that 🤔 what IS disgusting is calling mentally ill ppl that and expecting it to help anything

@oatkittyzz yup, one reason I want to recover is to stop having heart palpitations/extreme body aches due to thinness

honestly I fear death more than I fear being back to my hw, I just wanted to see if I could lose 10+kg without ever needing to and now that it's almost done I wonder if I took it too far like was all the pain worth it? I'm not sure anymore

I don't wanna be cold anymore, a pile of bones you try to love

how do I know when enough is enough? did I take it too far? concern looks like love, the going gets good then I fuck things up

as soon as I lose one more kg I'm gonna maintain bc I think if I lose any more it'll get really dangerous

one thing about me is that I never b/c every day and I just did today for the first time in weeks and I literally scared myself so I need to start maintaining asap if I don't want to get worse I won't post bodychecks on here but I've reached 46,4 so I'm practically at my gw

getting thinner always solves my problems

does anyone watch supersize vs superskinny and lowkenuinely just steal the superskinny's diet? no? just me? ok..

it's getting so bad I had to force myself to finish a CHOCOLATE MOUSSE... no not cake, not a dense dessert a MOUSSE because I felt so full and nauseous from eating veggies and a bit of bread..