Ash 🔪

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Things like my energy levels, when I take my morning meds, what I do in the day, when and what I eat, if I eat near to taking my quetiapine, but I just. Do not remember to record it and I don't even think of it until it's the end of the day

I know that the solution is to figuring out why it hits me in 46 minutes some days so hard I don't want to move and can't think straight and other days it'll be 3 hours and I just feel a bit tired is to pay attention to literally anything about my day but I cannot do that

Why do the meds hate me Need to be up at like 7 tomorrow and I'm not tired yet it's been over an hour and a half uggghh

@deerlycals Never bought a pack of cigs, I get raw tobacco, papers and filters and roll them myself, no I do not know why

do any of you smoke cigarettes?😊 if so what??? i smoke newports 100 cus thats what i use to steal from my mother

@edtwtconfessing I would say being groomed isn't cheating

feedback request

Too scared to get my meds cause I feel like I'll throw up in the middle of town

Managed to sleep (poorly) Took my venla this morning because if the withdrawal were what was making me sick yesterday I dont want to see what 48 hours will so

Thrown up twice ugh I have a feeling it'll be a third eventually,it's 2am

Hit the "what's the fucking point I'm killing myself" threshold, haven't seen that in a hoy minute

I am. No longer tired.

I RAN OUT OF QUETIAPINE OH NO

FEEL SICK OH MY FUCKING GOD THE TYPOS TODAY

Keep going to complain that I feel dick then remembering its probably because I didn't take my meds this morning and it's like. Well. Did this to myself. For the purpose of fasting. And then didn't fast.

Too hot under the covers far too cold outside of them...

@FaintingVulpe Is that too far to say

@FaintingVulpe Giving religious psychosis

i just wanted to donate plasma

Cooked* that is literally the opposite word

I cooled it so I have to eat it now but I'm upset about it Considered purging but even though EVERY time I have nictone I'm like "hoohoohehe if I throw up its ok" now that it counts I don't want to, I've gone so long I don't want to ruin it

Putting two more chicken tenders in the air fryer as I feel the pre-emptive regret build up