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🐤: Hello…
🦚: This is already awkward, isn’t it?
Hello… yes.
🐤: Ah, you were resting earlier.
🦚: Yes, that’s right.
🐤: Oh, your voice sounds good. Are you okay?
🦚: Yes, I’ve gotten much better. What about you, are you okay?
🐤: I’m fine, of course.
🦚: Ah, I feel like I’m going to die… my whole body hurts right now.
🐤: But you look more energetic than I expected.
🦚: Because I’m trying to look that way… ah, it’s exhausting.
🐤: But actually… oh, should we talk casually?
🦚: I don’t really know how things are going, but anyway…
🐤: Actually, I’m currently on the “Teuk Night” program…
🦚: Yes, yes… I know. Oh, why are you speaking formally? Ah, because it’s a broadcast program.
🐤: You do a lot of different things. Your energy is really amazing.
🦚: That’s why a lot of people are curious about our 83 line relationship.
🐤: Ah, what happened between you two?
🦚: Yes, how things happened…
Actually, when I was preparing for Express Mode last year, I started standing on stage again and went on tour.
The company told me: “Heechul, you should also prepare a solo album.”
But at that time, I hadn’t been on stage for a long period,
and due to many personal circumstances,
I realized I couldn’t stand on stage alone.
I talked with a hyung, and he said it might be similar to panic attacks,
but I didn’t want to admit it and I didn’t take any treatment.
Now, even during rehearsals, I can’t go on stage alone.
Just the idea of “standing alone on stage” feels completely different from before.
When I first debuted, I would even stare at the camera as if competing with it (laughs).
But now, both my body and mind have changed a lot…
So I told the company:
“Hyung, I can’t do this. I really can’t.
Either there’s no audience, or I truly can’t do it.”
But that’s impossible, of course.
The point is there is an audience, but I’m alone on stage—I can’t do it.
So I gave up on the idea of a solo album.
Later, when I traveled abroad with the members, someone (Shindong or Donghae) said:
“Why don’t you two try something together?”
At that moment, everything felt frozen.
Because for old ELF,
me and Leeteuk doing something together was almost impossible.
Later, Eunhyuk even joked about switching companies,
and then Leeteuk and I looked at each other and said:
“What? Should we try recording a song together?”
We felt like:
If it’s two people, maybe we could gather a bit of courage.
I had already completely given up on standing on stage,
but then we gradually started thinking:
“Then should we try making at least one song?”
The song we are working on now, 《온세미로》,
is composed by Lee Sang Joon, who also wrote 《나비잠》 and 《남자를 몰라》.
While thinking about the song title,
we wanted to create a song that we could share together with the fans.
Do you remember last year’s MAMA?
Someone posted on a forum saying:
‘There are no 20s-generation groups at MAMA.’
They listed several groups, and at the end, they mentioned us.
But we’re all in our 40s.”