rin ♡

why am i so difficult to love

anyone ever choke themselves with a shoelace until u feel like ur heads gonna pop just to stop the thoughts in ur brain and the tears , i want my mom to hold me like a baby again and sing a song until i fall asleep . i need peace

who else self sabotaging and ruining their life

i guess this is all in good for, makes me want to deface myself

i might as well kill myself for doing this to the only person who’s made me want to strive for normalcy and healthiness . I don’t deserve that . i’m scum of the earth and my mother should’ve terminated my existence

i like when my boyfriend punches the fuck out of my stomach

i’m gonna throw up everywhere

I fucked myself thru a panic attack today and it was like I was raping myself I felt I was gunna white out but instead I came and cried. To calm down I watched more pretty porn, came and forgot. Only remembering now lol.

touching my bones brings me back to peace

i’m an emotional eater , no wonder why i was so fucking fat a year and half ago and able to lose it all since then. My binging urges are coming back full force just as everything else wrong with me is. I refuse to gain weight bitch i’ll force myself to emotionally starve .

imma omad halo top tomorrow

wieiad ( 5/1 ) ~ fasting !

i wanna get crazy drunk but it’s so high cal

i’ve been so adverse to having sex to the point i finally did yesterday and bled everywhere from being torn/too tight lol at least i don’t have my period

@heartfullofana it’s not even true, just gotta eat at maintence forever .. i already know calorie counting is for life if i wanna stay my gw forever once i reach it

”starving yourself isn’t good in the long run because once you stop you’ll gain all the weight back” well it’s a good thing i’m not planning on stopping anytime soon lol 💀

i have the worst head ache but need to go on walk gfffe

@dearangeldotmp3 @jest3rpanik thank you!!!

@jest3rpanik @ilyrinrin_ It’s called Calory!! It’s super good because you can set your intake to whatever you want, track your water, your weight, etc!!!

I dont wanna talk about it 😅 it was super yummy though!!