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貉慧
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เข้าร่วม Temmuz 2020
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【お知らせです。】
この度、瑞希カフェ喫茶所属中のざいちく(@_HarakiriDrive)様が卒業される事が決まりました。
急な連絡にはなりますが、2枚目のお写真を読んで頂けますと幸いです。



瑞希カフェ喫茶☕/キャスト紹介@mizuki__cafe
🫶🏻0期生:ざいちく(자이치쿠 )🫶🏻️日本人❔韓国人❔ 本店『不器用ながら頑張ります』 or 敗北『敗北した君たちの為にめんどくさいけどちょっとだけ動きます』
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i've cried after sex twice in my life
both times it was because i realized something about league of legends
first time i was 16
lying there
staring at the ceiling
completely empty
not sad.
not happy.
just nothing.
and i thought
"this is exactly how i feel after a 50 minute loss"
you give everything
every ounce of focus
every cooldown timer tracked
every wave manipulated perfectly
and sometimes you still lose
that's the moment i understood
the outcome doesn't always match the effort
you can play the cleanest game of your life and still get gapped by something outside your control
second time was different
i was 18.
things were good. genuinely good.
lying there.
her head on my chest.
completely at peace.
and i thought "this is what winning actually feels like"
not the LP
not the rank
not the +25 that hits
just the feeling of everything clicking
total control.
total presence.
nothing else exists.
i cried because i realized i'd been playing league completely wrong my entire career
i wasn't grinding to win
i was grinding to escape
using ranked queue as a way to not think about my actual life
using the game to fill a void instead of mastering it
that's why i was hardstuck
i wasn't playing to get better
i was playing to disappear
the second i fixed shit outside the game, the game got easier
i stopped playing for distraction
started playing for dominance
fewer games.
more intention.
every queue meant something.
your rank is a reflection of your mental state
if you're hardstuck the answer isn't more games
it's fixing whatever the fuck you're running from
took crying after sex twice to figure that out
hit my peak 3 months later
Study the Saskio way

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