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1.6k is still below my maintenance why am i lying to myself i’ll eat 1.7k today

@starzaffect @mydeepestwnders has it actually helped get you out of a plateau?? i’ve plateaued somehow (side note, that was WEIRD to spell out) and i’m attempting a metabolism day rn to help with it but i feel horrible for it

@mydeepestwnders its a day where you eat your maintenance calories instead of eating in a deficit :) i cant remember the exact benefits but personally it helps when i’m in a weight plateau (where you aren’t losing weight anymore despite still being in a deficit)!!

metab days got me feeling like

wtf am i going to do

let’s play a game called: is it water retention or am i just fat

drinking lots and lots and lots of water because i accidentally consumed 101g of fiber

—i’m gonna fucking kill myself, i’m not joking.

—should i just kill myself? is this where it ends for me? my looks were the only thing i had going for me. i’m not talented, i’m not good with people, i’m not useful in any way at all. my looks were all i had, now i have nothing. if i don’t lose weight by the end of this month,—

it all feels useless before i attempted recovery, if i was in a deficit, i’d lose weight, simple now after relapsing, it’s virtually impossible. no matter how much i walk or how little i eat i either maintain or gain. it all feels pointless but i can’t live with myself like—

i can’t be stuck here i can’t please i’ll kill myself i’m not joking i will

why have i not been losing weight oh my fucking god it makes zero sense

i’m going to cry i’m not disordered at all

ate a ton and left some room for dinner later and i feel disgusting i literally feel so disgusting i’m fucking worthless dude

omg what the fuck i own so much high-fiber stuff i’m accidentally at 101g fiber

okay i lied i am doing a metab day because i do that every 10th day i will eat 1.6k calories today then after that restrict to under 800 a day because maybe that’s what’s wrong

no matter how big of a deficit i’m eating in, i don’t lose weight. should i just fucking kill myself or something? do i need a metab day?

@COTTONW00D can’t see it being anything else but anorexia-b/p

im not diagnosed and i dont really know the criteria.. does anyone know what i may be? im medically underweight, restrict most days of the week but i purge when i binge which is like 2× a week probably.. is it an-bp? ednos??

i WILL be getting 20k steps today

@mayssdiaryy I’m so happy to hear that

@whitemonstur Thankyou this makes me feel so much better

I feel like this is niche but I can’t keep any sugar in my house without eating all of it am I a fake anorexic I feel like I’m meant to have control around food

ur kidding lmao i gained ykw i’m eating one more protein bar then fasting 24hrs minimum