Nyx 🍷

I guess I will try to maintain it until summer holidays so I can starve in peace again...

Anyway we still have another one on Wednesday so I will keep eating even if it pained me a lot. I have a little solo and I need to help carry my girls.

I love music and doing concerts, but being skinny thin and playing wind instruments is not compatible.

I did regret eating, but it was needed. Otherwise, I would not be able to play. Ngl this ed make me out of breath way more sooner than it should be. When I see the girls playing so nicely I do feel terrible letting myself get this bad that it affects my play.

Lmao impossible to starve. This collab was intense. Classical music is way more "chill". Playing with a pop groups needed way more energy and on stage too.

@ani_is_skinny Thank you Ani 🩷

@Scout_Storm good luck today !! i hope you can enjoy yourself 💛 you can always get back on the bandwagon tomorrow

Today we have meals together in preparation for tonight's concert and rehearsals all day. I'm going to kms. I JUST WANT TO STARVE I ate too much last night already...

@cafeopen247 <3

@Scout_Storm ur literally tiny

I'm disgustingly fat

+0.7kg 💀

I'm so bloated

It's a curse being so small in height

Why did I let myself binge

I hate the feeling of food in my stomach. It was better empty.

Anyway goodnight lovely people 🩷 I will finally shut up 🗡

Only "positive" aspect is that I no longer have food noise :D

I don't know why I thought I could be only edtwt when I know I've always been shedtwt. I don't even understand myself sometimes.

I'm wondering if I should just turn this account as a shedtwt atp. If anyone is not comfortable with it, feel free to unfollowed. I would totally understand as it can be even more sensitive topics.

I'm sorry for spamming my stupid feelings

It's so sad being self-aware and seeing myself getting worse. My gw used to way higher and healthier than whatever I am right now. It's depressing.