Elijah 💮

march2025 and may 2026 #degradation probably I have depression?

trying to stop my BP with153 kcal soup

something

starting again... fuck

friend, but I just can block you in any moment and be unstable and tell bad words I'm so sorry if I will ever do it. I deserve to die, I need to die, I need to stop die, just die die die die die Sorry, my thoughts are weird now. I feel dizzy. Just don't leave me alone :[

They did nothing wrong, One of them can see this post and I want to tell YOU that I really appreciate that you are talkihjt to me and tell all the kind words to me. But my mind doesn't like it. It weird. I have a lot of dopamine after chatting with you, I really love you as a fri

#shtwt ah I have so much pain inside right now. Mentally I exploded. hate my existing (Make-up, realistic gore, I'm an artist and created with clay and glue realistic makeup for Halloween)

... starting my BP (342 kcal

@wastedpulse I did. just editing the photos now :b

@Kayzerkim Time to mix corn starch in it

the ketchup is so liquid 🫟

I need to go and receive my package:[ I need to be happy but it's so sunny outside

going to do a really bad thing, good luck. lot of blood will go out from my body. but I need it. (after purging feel weird)

@quixj1 it looks do good, ahhh pls gimmi this through the screen T-T

banana, nectarine, pear yogurt bowl + chocolate oat cookie

621kcal breakfast

I felt lot of pain, woke up with tears and full covered in sweat... eh.. I had lot of stress in my real life and probably my mind converted it in my dream. Have a nice day, I wish you all to be happy

for the 1st time with really huge pain in my leg, it was horrible feeling. I don't like when I have leg cramp :[ then I drank some water and go back in my dreams . And the fat monster dissapeared. But I didn't had one of my leg, and for no reason I started to eat myself.

Good morning my souls how are you? did you sleep well? As usual for now I slept pretty tight but woke up 3 times+ had a nightmare where my fat was some sort of monster and it have been eating my body piece by piece. slowly, painfully. when it completely ate my leg I woke up↓

oh I just woke up cuz of leg cramp.. I have so much pain :[ it still hurts really well 😭