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an intro for #edtwt ♡ 𓇼𓆉 𓆝 𓆡 𝄞 21, he/him 🏳️‍⚧️, autistic ♿️ 𝄞 pro-recovery, not fatphobic 𝄞 long term/chronic AN-r 𝄞 dms open, very interactive 𝄞 occasional vents/bcs 𝄞 Likes: classical/experimental music, radio, languages, hats, earl grey tea.

@lifeisa_pigsty i love elliott smith <33

Unpinning at 180

Is it a good idea to start lifting weights so i can more easily pick things up or would I just be likely to hurt myself?

@tauntifer Rose mint iced tea! I brew it by the pitcher in summer 💜

what’s everyone bringing to the group charcoochie function!?? I’ll bring tiny toast and CORNICHONS!

@tauntifer Dude in your situation it could be like 200 different things. Seconding what spiz is saying re: starting a gofundme, no one here wants to see you suffer or die like this:( and I’m sure that tons of people would want to help

doctors of edtwt what does the severe abdominal edema mean 😸 I don’t have insurance and I can’t afford to pay out of pocket but I will let u pet asparagus as a form of payment

@snoopyrexic Honestly a lot of it is frame size. I still looked pretty normal at bmi 14

this is gonna make me sound so stupid, but do those smaller instagram models (think underground rap “groupies” for lack of a better example) maintain bmi’s like 15-16 without their body looking visibly disgusting and off putting ?? i deadass looked like slender man at that bmi

is it going to be weird if I wear the Dante Alighieri costume I made to watch the new film that follows his life (sort of) with my mom? I think it’s a direct release so I’m not going to be embarrassing people or anything.

this shirt used to be my mom’s for like 12 years until someone put it in the wash with reds and it got haphazardly “tie-dyed”. it’s comfortable and I don’t really care about that sort of thing

@lovamali @malireia YESSSS S GOOD FOR YOU. freeing as heck tbh. also a free block list for people who comment/dm asking about it

@BATB0NEZ how tired you are . if you think it would help even a little i would really encourage you to give it a shot because you deserve so much more out of life than you are getting.

@BATB0NEZ i know its really hard to believe it when you've been at a lower weight but you are still in a really dangerous place. but honestly above anything you deserve help and to not feel the way you do :( it breaks my heart having seen your tweets getting more and more downtrodden and

Do I just submit and go to the hospital. Apparently it’s my only option. I just don’t understand I’m so far from concerning weight

@evershells Macy you are serving in every picture ever and do not need to hurt yourself:(

Was lowkey serving here😔 How am I supposed to make myself like GENUINELY relapse? U guys PLS! I rlly want it back but it feels impossible. I NEED attention. this is the only way I get it Also! I hate eyebrows, like I’ve said this b4 but I js hate them. Is it ocd related?

I love this jacket so much,it’s a thick fleece and is long so it’s really warm, but it still looks like normal clothes and not pajamas.

@BATB0NEZ please don’t kat :( that would be so horribly traumatic and painful and even if you don’t pass you’ll be left with severe permanent damage. :( I wish there was something I could do to take away the pain you are feeling

in have anti ftre5eze debating tro drinkn it

@debbiesarah30 if anyone stops liking you for slowing down the pace you’re killing yourself at for their own gratification they can go fuck themselves. I’m sorry you feel being treated like a person is contingent on that ☹️☹️☹️

@evershells 🥳🥳🥳🥳omg I’m so excited for you!! I have a bunny not a cat but I strongly recommend reading a lot about care/ talking to others and finding a vet and pet supply store *beforehand*

YOU GUYS IM GONNA GET A CAT OMFGGG AHHHHH!!!! My mom thought the owners of our house said no pets, but they meant no dogs & said I can have a CATT!! WHATTT IM SO EXCITED LIKE MAYBE I WILL RECOVER IF I GET ONE?!!!! This will be my first ever cat does anyone have advice?😯🤔

@trainwreckxic do you think it is possible to maybe try to get some rest and let your mind settle ? easier said than done ik :(

@trainwreckxic I’m sorry dude. :( I wish there was something I could do or say to take that feeling away

@trainwreckxic Until their 30s-50s, that doesn’t mean that’s not sick enough and not suffering, and often restrictive anorexics live until late 30s despite catastrophically low weights. It’s time dependent and the risk is there. Many many people die before 25 too.

@trainwreckxic I mean this in the kindest and most genuine way possible; that is 100% an irrational ed thought and I’m so sorry you can’t see how at risk you are of something critical happening literally any day. so so much of this is your age. People who are 700 pounds often live that way unti

@debbiesarah30 I understand how you’re feeling though I recently got a bunch of new followers for the same reasons and I feel like I’m in a fish tank.