ester🥕

first recovery meal. obvi i only ate half. feeling anxious.

@intore08 it’s just “resort to anorexia” or “me too” 🫩

@ester2luvss Like no one has any good advice, only for anorexia and it’s mad annoying. Bruh I want to stop please ugh but im addicted I feel disgusting

everybody talks about anorexia recovery but not bulimia. oh my god i cannot stop binge purge PLEASE help

anyone else expirence this?: i’ll be at PHP (or res, wtv) and can eat the meal and be full but i coke home and eat the same or similar and am not full. why?

told my dad i bp once (im not telling him ts daily) and he’s like YOU CANT DO SHIT RIGHT UR ALWAYS FUCKING UP lmfaooo okay

@celinamonroll @moonsfaeriies i just bend over and it all comes out 🫩

@ester2luvss @moonsfaeriies i dont think im ever going to recover from either now that purging is so easy and normal for me

@whipplikedcream THIS!!!! MMMM OMFFFGGGGG

@ester2luvss It’s literally so fucking horrible because you’re experiencing extreme hunger but can’t quit it omg

@sakurachoux great!! 🫩

@ester2luvss I went 3 weeks without b/ping once and Ya , nothing changes the cycle never stops😊😊😊

@vivabominable @Niko_sk2x_shed oh ik i’d def abuse it but shh 🤫

@Niko_sk2x_shed @ester2luvss tbf they could prolly be abused but idk🥲

@Zoalfcedancers LMAOO

out of pocket comment from my dietician. Girl this is the best flavor by quest bffr

@iiguxo2 ❤️

@ester2luvss It sucks 😐 I keep going I don't want to purge again, then I overeat or binge whatever and then I just have to :( I'm stuck in a cycle now that I can't get out off

so sorry you all relate but i’m relieved we’re all living the same struggle cus i felt so alone :/

@riyaisstarved wish i had the restrictive type i feel like that’s sm easier to recover from (easier said than done but ykwim)

@ester2luvss it’s so difficult to get out of, i think the best thing you can do is just constantly keep your mind preoccupied and have a set meal plan? idk

@vivabominable @Niko_sk2x_shed no, can’t take any stimulants cus i’m technically anorexic. but like i’m literally bulimic idek. psychiatrists don’t believe me ig cus im uw

@Niko_sk2x_shed @ester2luvss lowkey real i just eat to get dopamine😭😭 its not even my actual hunger i just crave stimulation, do u take meds?

@enteralite @Niko_sk2x_shed how to anorexia 😭😭😭

@Niko_sk2x_shed @ester2luvss Me too and whT i find is the only thing that helps is anorexia

@Anais86387876 i try that and then inevitably binge 💀

@ester2luvss Ppl on here be talking abt bulimia recovery js to get better at restricting

@lunooculus it’s like it’s luring me lmfao like “heyyy bishhh come hereee 😏”

@ester2luvss I feel you. I was brushing my teeth after I snacked and gagged and I looked at the toilet and couldn’t help it 😭 like it’s too compelling

i don’t want to recover idec anymore i want this shit to fucking kill me. i don’t even wanna go back home either cus i hate living w my parents. guess i have to be homeless

@mattysnowpuff strawberries are NOT high calorie what😭😭

lemme get this straight eggs = high in cal grapes = high in cal bananas = high in cal rice cakes = high in cal rice = high in cal apples = high in cal strawberries = high in cal oats = high in cal 🫩 #edtwt

@Niko_sk2x_shed cus i also have ADHD…

@ester2luvss I feel like my binging is adhd-related, and that's going to be hell to stop. Even before restricting and purging, I've been binging for years and couldn't stop despite many attempts over the years. I honestly have no idea how I'm ever going to recover

@Niko_sk2x_shed fuck😒😭

@blurry_ideal im literally in php and cannot stop. i do not wanna go back to res tho idfk i always find a way. i found a way to bp in my last res. this is hell. my ed is so sneaky even cus i don’t want it to be

@ester2luvss so sorry ester 🫂 i can imagine what you’re doing is really difficult i hope you are ok