my head’s been such a mess lately. i’m tryin’ so hard not to get angry, not to cry, not to let everything spill out at once. but it feels like i’m holdin’ too much inside, and i’m gettin’ tired of fightin’ with myself every day.
cried for over an hour, thinkin’ about everything all at once. mournin’ things, people, even myself. and after all that, i didn’t feel better.. just empty.
supporting your idols is one thing, but showin’ up at the airport late at night just feels a bit too much. they came to work, not to lose every bit of privacy they have left. fans can be excited and still respect boundaries. gua aja lagi libur kerja, milih diem di rumah.
