Pinned Tweet
alex
4.9K posts
alex
@chuncmoder
huskmoding into hell
tpob (that part of brooklyn) Joined Mayıs 2022
1.2K Following1.3K Followers
@autumnrain80 hrt is magic if you start pre puberty in that you won’t have to voice train, most likely won’t need ffs to visually pass, and will be able to perform femininity as much as a cis woman does to be read as a woman. post puberty it’s mainly just preventing further damage from T
English
“HRT is magic” enabled “boymoder” culture and expectations. Its effects are way overvalued in the context of a social transition. Now we have girls waiting to be themselves for magic that will likely never get them there.
English
@deskhon85491 @PastaModer i malefail before speaking sometimes but i don’t pass with my voice to the point everyone in my life including all my friends thinks i’m just a cis guy. idk i just cope with dissociating as much as i can but idrt i’ll get past 30 with this strat let alone thru this year atp
English
@chuncmoder @PastaModer What's the alternative if you don't pass and aren't ok with honmoding? You yourself admit to largely passing after ffs. Most of us don't have that route out.
English
the funniest thing about this post is that it ended up being a banger for the traaa / egg_irl crowd but this shit is just entirely from over a decade of fully conscious repression half that on hrt all while becoming the worst version of myself i possibly could have become
alex@chuncmoder
was a sentence away from coming out to my friend last night while we were drunk and now my brain is just like “you should gaslight her about everything you said, deny being trans, and become emotionally unavailable forever”
English
knowing i could die at any moment instead of having to get the will to do it myself gives me comfort that one day i can sleep forever and never have to wake up to the nightmare of being trapped in this vessel ever again
♡BEA♡@beatami_
trans people who know but stay closeted are insane to me because you do realise youre an animal that could die at any time... right? like... no matter what happens you die! you know that right?! YOURE GOING TO DIE ONE DAY ! PLEASE INTERNALISE THAT !! DONT WASTE YOUR TIME !!!
English
@sndwv_ oh that was me in high school / how i repped before becoming a manmoder. for me it was an attempt to ignore dysphoria and perpetually delay transitioning with completely dissociated hedonism. ended up doing a bunch of crazy shit that most reppers never even end up doing
English
@chuncmoder i saw the tv glow is the middle road. i mean like, we need some wolf on wall street kinda shit.
English
@aMoral_Mistake @oomfmoder it’s the voice oomf and you know that considering i malefail visually even in a hat and binder before i speak. voice is everything unless you can convince your brain to actually get anything from pitypassing
English
@chuncmoder @oomfmoder Wear an actual bra for a week instead of the binder and leave the cope-cap at home, i wanna see how that combo would work with the shorter hair
English
@oomfmoder i have a mental block for some reason that prevents me from using my trained voice irl so i use my cismoid natural voice and just dissociate. i’m old now too i’m reaching the end of my 20s so it just feels sm more difficult to come out. it’s all my fault
English
@chuncmoder This is genuinely so sad, why are you not transitioning? I feel bad for you
English
@PastaModer don’t become me oomf. no one deserves to endure this pain and lose the entirety of their youth the way i have
English
@chuncmoder Genuinely cannot wait to also be a 5 year HRT manmoder, I already got the dissociation and extreme depression down!!!!
English
the worst thing about puberty is that if my vocal cords weren’t mutilated by T i would 100% be passing but instead i have to manipulate my body to produce some shitty strained recreation of my real voice that’ll never pass to myself even it ends up fooling cis people
English
@JKoralCEO i bet this meme goes rly hard if you’re 6 months hrt and still have hope and not 5 years hrt and still living as a man
English
@espressobaddie @MicroDoseHon substance abuse. constant dissociation and depersonalization. telling yourself you can’t rope until your parents die when you start making plans. mental breakdowns to interrupt dissociation with lots of crying and “i can’t live like this” at 3am. it’s not rly living
English
@MicroDoseHon that “12 years” hit me like a truck how do people live like this?
English
@JKoralCEO i saw the tv glow how bout i saw the clavicles grow (and turn me into a shoulderhon)
English
@chuncmoder they made a whole movie about why you shouldn’t do this
English
@MicroDoseHon this will be me unless i get the will to start using my fake trained voice outside instead of my true moid voice
English
@whattfismylife_ @alhpaquead @normal_guy41 i’m not a hon i’m a passoid with a moid voice that needs to voice train i recognize i visually pass atp at least to cis people
English