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I want to make a new pinned and change my user so this is the load bearing post 20, they/she married lesbo user used to be 400kcalz active on edtwt since 2021 (different accs) I like what i like and I have nothing to prove, im rotting away basically edtwt , shedtwt

@prodviky its terrifying and still upsets me seeing the bigger final number, but my mental hunger has been literally 0 so thats worth it for me ❤️‍🔥

@decomposedheart literally☹️ i wanna try harm reduction and eating at least 1400 while walking 20k+ but any spike in the scale- even if its technically just water weight- is genuinely so hard to cope w/ im srsly so tired. did you jump straight to it bae or gradually increase ? i feel so lost

I hate trying to maintain i feel so fake and disgusting

@prodviky same 🫠🫠 I slowly increased by 100c a month since January and ive been having consistently over 1280 for 2 months now, and I didnt have a scale for the first 4 months but I lost 6 lbs during the process 🫣 now I maintain/lose between bmi 12 - 13.1 depending on water weight!!

@debbiesarah30 this is what I do, I eat 1300 cal - 1600 cal and walk like 14k-20k a day, im also 172cm (38kgs) 🫂🫂🖤 I would 100% recommend just jumping into it and drinking sm water especially at first!!

I wanted to be pretty but instead I destroyed myself and any chance I had at a somewhat okay life and now i just live in constant hell

im doing so bad i dont reply to anyone not my parents not my coworkers not anyone I have 0 energy to do anything but go to work and absolutely anything outside of that (other than wife obv) I literally can not even text back and I feel awful so fucking bad abt it

just had the most magical peach and apple yogurt bowl

i wish that I was as invisible as everyone make me feel

coworker will not stop bodychecking me every time im around her and she makes it so obvious my wife even noticed, I hate being alive cause wtf

weighing myself when i’m constipated knowing my real weight is lower but i can’t access that information

Being an exercise addict is all fun and games until you get sick and suddenly everything is horrible for a couple of days and you can't even cope the way you normally would

bodychecks from yesterday

I am in so much pain I need her to come home

you dont need to eat just wait longer

I love living in the times of end stage capitalism with the “your body will be punished for exerting yourself” disease.

I need to walk more im only ate 11k steps today but i feel so sick I cwnt move

I feel disgusted with myself when i exhibit symptoms of the disorders that i have like what do you mean im actually disabled 😄 no im just lazy and evil and I take advantage of everyone and im awful

when I’m abused and put through traumatic situations every single day and then everyone wonders why I act the way I do like guess what

the rate at which my ocd compulsions cause me to downward spiral needs to be studied

yog bowl 15 minutes

I see people here talk about wanting to lose weight so their peers will be concerned and shit but have yall planned for what happens when people get tired of it?? Because after a while people will give up on you, sickness becomes a normality until all you feel like is a burden