Big Tarpon
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@IDrawCharts Amen, thank you for sharing this. Love your heart for helping others and resilience. I had a similar experience due to an API hack at 3Commas. The future is indeed very bright!
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This is might sound a little weird and maybe a bit cocky but here goes:
I've always been used to winning
Don't get me wrong, I've been down bad in life.
Very down bad.
Evicted, slept in my car, joined the military for food and a roof when I was younger.
But it was always my own fault.
My laziness, my intentional ineptitude, inability to accept authority or some combination of the above
I could have done something about it, I just didn't
But that made it easy to fix once I decided to do so
When I put in the effort, I'm better than most people at most things because I was taught from a young age to think rigorously.
Thinking well is the primary skill required for success in any area of life and I have been given every possible tool and all the training I need to do so.
But when SBF stole my money, I truly lost for the first time.
For the first time in my life I lost primarily due to someone else instead of my own faults (even if I could have better protected myself).
It destroyed my mental health, my self-worth and my confidence in every area of my life and I had to rebuild all of it piece by piece.
Which is wrong.
I talk a lot about being willing to accept loss in the market but in a lot of ways that's hypocritical.
I may be extremely adept at bouncing back from being wrong in the market and losing money, but I don't think I've ever properly learned to lose in a way that really hurts.
Until this past year.
I lost millions.
I had moments of weakness and suicidal ideations, a lot of them.
I lost the business I was trying to build at Jungle and the incredible team I was able to bring together for it.
I lost every bit of what I built for myself over the last decade, encapsulating the entirety of my adult life and more than a third of my time on this earth in total.
But from that, I finally know what it is to lose and I'm still fucking here.
I lost and it's ok. It didn't kill me and the world's still spinning.
Those things I lost, they still hurt a lot. But they don't change the fact that there's a future out there.
That future is whatever the fuck I decide to make it look like, and you know what? I'm deciding it looks pretty goddamned good.
For me, for the people I care about and even for people I'll never meet but whose lives I can indirectly impact for the better in whatever way I can.
I'm rebuilding the habit of winning and that doesn't have anything to do with a goddamn bull-run in the market.
I'm not fucking special, anybody can do what I do if they dedicate themselves to it the way I have.
I don't know if there's a point to this post or if I just needed to get it off my chest.
Maybe I just need to be able to look at it and remind myself of from time to time in writing.
Maybe it will encourage someone.
Doesn't actually matter to me. I'm writing this for my own sake and sanity.
Hold me accountable, ily all ❤️
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@catturd2 God frequently uses the most unlikely people for HIS greater purpose. To be sure, you are here for a reason 🙏
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Why Me? by Catturd.
I'm exhausted - mentally and physically. This Catturd thing has been a 5 year rollercoaster ride. I basically work 7 days a week; no days off, no vacations. I don't even know how I got here. I often ask, why me?
I have no idea how I've gained such a large following - sometimes I think it's mostly luck. Most the larger accounts on the conservative side have lived a very different life than me. In short, they did most everything right in life, and I did almost everything wrong - lol.
You couldn't get a more flawed and imperfect person than me. Although I've never been in trouble with the law, arrested, and only had one traffic ticket in my life - I was aimlessly adrift for many of my early years.
I joined the Army at 17-years-old, once my service was over - I basically started immediately screwing up. I was so lost. I had several failed marriages when I was way too young and had no idea what love was. Then I spent over a decade as a hippie musician, growing my hair, carefree, smoking weed, drinking too much, and even using some hard drugs. (I even had a VW hippie van - lol ) I was homeless at one point, living in a tent beside a lake for months. I fought alcoholism pretty hard during these times and still have to watch myself today.
Don't get me wrong, I don't regret a moment of my life, because I strongly believe it takes lots of failures to become successful at anything.
I finally seemed to get my shit together around the age of 40. It took me long enough - lol.
At the age of 54, I decided to join social media for the first time because I suddenly got arthritis in my fingers where I lost the ability to play guitar. I was lost again and needed some kind of artistic outlet. Sometimes I think Catturd saved me in a way.
With this reach and when you truly speak your mind, The Left will viscously try to destroy you. YOU MUST BE SILENCED and it never ends.
For just giving my honest opinions, I've been doxxed, harassed, 100 hit pieces written about me, people come by house and scream obscenities, tons of death threats, and on and on. Everyone I've known for 40 years and many of my family members have been bullied and relentlessly harassed for years.
Sometimes I don't know why a screw-up like me was give this much reach. I pray every night I'll use this opportunity the right way to help as many people as possible - and pets. I'm always struggling in which direction to go.
I can honestly say, however, the love I get from my followers pushes me through the hard times, when I'm exhausted or down. Whether it's on social media or on our podcast, I try to make people laugh every day to ease the pain of what this country is going through.
In closing on this novel, I feel so blessed to have the support and love from so many of you. I don't claim to be perfect, but I'll always give you my raw and unfiltered opinions, right or wrong. I'm not afraid and I'm fighting for this country as hard as I can.
All of you saved me - I love you all.
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The World's Greatest Trump Impersonator leaves a voicemail for Adam Schiff. Brilliant work from Shawn Farash.
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@CryptoSavy1 Give it to my favorite local charity that serves the homeless and hungry.
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If you had to spend 100k in the next 12 hours and not keep any of it, what would you buy (anything)?
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@TravisHunterJr Praying for your full and speedy recovery. And, sending much love from Nole Nation!
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@CryptoSavy1 I found you from BitFink's recommendation. Very glad to be here!
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@AltsOracle On my Trading View chart, the indicator seems to have now unflashed for all timeframes.
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$BTC
NGL - I must have wet myself a bit when someone tweeted that the hash ribbon indicator flashed blue today.😉
I'm trying to make sense here - I'm not done yet. Just tweeting in case you want to follow my thought process.
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