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I interrupt your regularly scheduled tweet scrolling to bring you ZJ wearing his Rebel With A Cause vest because he wanted to do a photo shoot and it’s SO FREAKIN’ CUTE #gish #CutestRebel

@TheRyanHamilton Do it! I miss your shows! 💙

Do people play Online Shows anymore? Thinking about giving it a shot (again) if it’s still a thing 🤷🏻‍♂️

@TheRyanHamilton Agreed It makes me want to weep 😭😂

If you think Knockin’ On Heaven’s Door is an original song by Guns N Roses, I don’t think we can be friends… 😳😉😂

@TheRyanHamilton This is still one of my favorite albums ever! Cannot believe it’s been ten years, holy hell (of a day) I’m old. Happy birthday, Ryan. So heckin glad you’re still with us. LOVE YOU 💙

Ten years ago this album saved me. Happy Anniversary, Happy Birthday, & a brief history. Smile Smile, People On Vacation etc... #HappyAnniversary

Shitposting in close friends is so risky. Like, yeah here’s the chaos, we still good? x

@TheRyanHamilton Sending you so much love and strength 💙

Could you pray for our family? Without oversharing: We're going through some pretty difficult things🙏🏻

In his first 2 days, Donald Trump has removed the Reproductive Rights website, completely scrubbed the search results for “abortion”, & is already using language like “at conception” (thank you @JessicaValenti) First of all, F*CK YOU! Secondly, it’s time to try something else…

Honored to have our story reaching people in the UK. Claire/@SkyNews handled our conversation(s) in the most respectful way. Which meant a lot. Especially considering that our story will inevitably be met with the same, ignorant, anti abortion responses. news.sky.com/story/how-us-a…

@TheRyanHamilton This made my blood boil. I’m so fucking livid for you and J. What absolute KUMQUATS those people have to be. Love you, Ryan. You’re doing great and you’ve got so much support behind you 💙

I deal with this sort of thing every day. The pro life movement is full of cruelty, & hypocrisy. There’s nothing “pro life”, or “Christian” about them. They’re proud to be this way. Do they think their attacks will shut me up? Truth is, it does the opposite. 15 days. F*ck em🖕🏻💙

@TheRyanHamilton The house party shows were legendary ✨🫶🏽 Heckin MISS YOU over here!

Great question! For folks who don't know: I was a touring musician for 20+ years. I had a big following in the UK & Europe. After the music business went to sh*t, I stopped touring, & got an offer to have my own radio show (which I broadcast from Texas) on a big UK station🙌🏻🇬🇧📻

@TheRyanHamilton I’m really, really pleased and couldn’t be more proud of you if I tried. You have such a good soul, Ryan 💙

The Podcast is happening. I can't believe the amazing guests who have already agreed to join me. If what happened to our family can continue to have an impact, & affect change, I will continue to find a way to talk about it. PS. Was it ever going to be called anything else?

@TheRyanHamilton @StevieVanZandt I’ve seen you live MULTIPLE times. I have traveled HOURS to watch you play because you are just that damn good and you put on a hell of a show. Is this supposed to be a dig… or? I don’t get it. What a strange little thing SENDING LOVE 🫶🏽

The pro lifers are on my ass about my former career. Was I a touring musician in my former life? CORRECT! I don't know why they keep using quotes like "used to play". Here's the kind of "garbage" I "used to play". I wrote this one with @StevieVanZandt. youtu.be/pUjpsp4Rh4g?si…

@TheRyanHamilton I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. It’s absolutely, sickeningly criminal how healthcare finances are handled in the US. I’m so sorry that your family had to pay to be traumatized. I’m sorry that so many others have been and will continue to do so. We gotta change it 💙

Can we talk about medical bills? The torturous way my wife was treated still resulted in over $30,000 in medical bills. I haven't mentioned it, because we wanted to pay our bill(s) first. Which we now have. We don't want anyone's money. We're both employed, & we have Insurance. I can't help but think about people who don't have the means, or don't have insurance. What do those people do?! It angers me, and it hurts my heart to think about those other women, & families who aren't as fortunate. Texas 2024 - We won't give you the abortion you need, but please try anyway! We're happy to bankrupt you in the process! 🤬💔

@TheRyanHamilton Holy shit they are actually being this meme lmaooo Sending you love and strength, Ryan. Heckin’ always. 🤟🏽

Should we be concerned? Woke up to some pretty crazy stuff… 🤷🏻‍♂️🤯😢

@TheRyanHamilton I’m so hurt for you, but so proud of you for how much you care about making a difference for the lives of people in the future. Sending you and your family so much love, Ryan. All that love and light you’ve brought into my life over the years is coming right back at you 🫶🏽

I find myself escaping here, every morning. During the quiet time when my wife & daughter are still sleeping. Sitting alone with just my thoughts is too much to bear. Am I wrong for doing this? I'm just setting myself for the crueler side of the internet to continue calling me a narcissist, or a liar. I'm not a narcissist. I'm not a liar. But I am a husband, and a father. What happened to my family lit a fire inside me that I can't quite explain. I AM ANGRY! I don't want my daughter to grow up in a world where women are treated like her mom just was! I can't accurately explain how all of this feels. It's so hard. Maybe this is what Social Media was originally intended to be. A place where we could share our stories, and in the difficult times, lift each other up. There's a strange comfort in the the detachment. I find it easier to talk you you all here, than I do to my friends and family. Does that make any sense? I also now know how many of you out there are counting on me now. Thank you for sharing your stories with us. I originally shared because of what happened to MY family. But now we know how much bigger all of this is. I think we have the right people involved, and the right plan moving forward. Thank you for your continued support, and thank you for hearing me during these quiet moments.

@TheRyanHamilton So fucking sorry Ryan. Sending you both so much love. I don’t even know what to say. The anger I feel for you both is overwhelming and my heart hurts so much too. You’re in my thoughts and I’m sending you a huge hug💙

My heart is broken💔: As friends & family know, my wife was pregnant with our 2nd child, & about to begin her 2nd trimester. A few days ago she had severe pains, & bleeding, and had to go to the emergency room. There, it was discovered that our baby no longer had a heartbeat. Devastated doesn't come close to what that feels like. Unfortunately for people like us, because of the current laws in the state of Texas, that was only the beginning of this nightmare. Jess (my wife) had an "incomplete miscarriage", and what needed to happen, what was best for HER, and her health, was to terminate the pregnancy, and get the baby out. The doctor gave her a medication that would move this process along, and sent her home. Where, apparently we would be handling it ourselves. We were told it might take a couple of attempts before it worked. I'll let you decide how you feel about that. After a long, painful night of the equivalent of early labor, the baby was still with her. So, we went back to the Emergency Center to get the 2nd dose. A new doctor was on call. He was an older man. You could hear him in the hallway as he said, "I'm not giving her a pill so she can go home and have an ab*rtion!". Being well aware that our baby no longer had a heartbeat. Then, he came into the room to say, and I quote: "Considering the current stance. I'm not going to prescribe you this pill". Then, just sent us on our way. The "CURRENT STANCE"?! Did he really just say that?! No one should ever have to hear their wife say: "Get this dead baby out of me!". Can you even imagine how that must feel? The pain, and the bleeding continued. So, we decided to go to another hospital, about an hour away. There was a female doctor on call there, and we thought we might have better luck. I should probably mention, the procedure to get the baby out is called a D & C. It's scary, & traumatizing, but sometimes necessary in situations like ours. Especially in emergency circumstances. So we get to the next hospital. They take Jess in, ask her a bunch of questions, do a new scan... confirm that the baby is still there, with no heartbeat, and then disappear... for hours. Only to come back in and keep asking the same questions over and over. It's becoming clear that they're primary concern is NOT my wife's health. Instead, they seem to be worried about the legalities involved. So, they decide it is not "enough of an emergency" to perform the D & C. They do, however, prescribe another, stronger, final dose of the medication for us to try again... at home. So, we go home to try again. Another long day/night of early labor pains. Only to discover my wife UNCONSCIOUS in the bathroom. Having to pick my wife's cold, limp body off of that bathroom floor, not sure if I was about to lose her, is something I will NEVER forget. She had to be rushed to the hospital. By this point she had lost so much blood, and bodily fluid, her body gave out. They were able to stabilize her, give her the fluids she needed, and we came back home yesterday afternoon. We were also able to confirm that our baby was no longer with her. Now, not only do we have to live with the loss of our baby... we have to live with the nightmare of what we just experienced because of political and religious beliefs. MY WIFE'S HEALTH SHOULD HAVE COME FIRST. PERIOD! God knows what mental and emotional damage this has done. If you consider yourself a staunch "pro-lifer" ... 1) You've never been through what we just went through, and 2) You should take a long, hard look in the mirror and reevaluate your reasons for supporting such a cold, barbaric, ignorant point of view. It's not that black & white, and it's never going to be. If you think your "Pray To End Ab*rtion" sign in your yard is "Christian", I suggest you revisit the teachings of Jesus and try again. If you support these laws that make ab*rtion illegal, and result in people being put through what we just were, you should be ashamed of yourself. I've never been so angry, or heartbroken... and the devastation I'm feeling must pale in comparison to what my poor wife is feeling.

I feel so seen

@caslostwings @Pro_They @maetheheller @UnderwaterNinj4 @father_salmon @jaistiel @DragonKailss Cannot believe you’re in SF and I’m like NOT HOME 💔😭 I hope y’all had the absolute best time 🫶🏽💙💚

Here we are “in San Francisco” 💀

@caslostwings I was meant to be but we had a family thing and my parents ended up flying out here instead. They only just flew back home on Tuesday 😭

@BluciferW Not as much as I love you 🥹 any chance you are in sf area this coming week?? I can go back to fb dms but I feel like they’re cursed 💀

Am I coping well? No. Am I retreating into fanfic and can you expect a bunch more soon? Yes. Silk Chiffon is on AO3 now.

@Just_Gill1 I’m absolutely going to post this thing when it’s finished. I don’t know that It’s my best work because I keep laughing, but I’m having fun and I guess that’s what counts 🥳 it’s how all great works are made right 😂

@BluciferW See?

I just watched it this week and I was absolutely fucking crying?? Like, the entire thing is stunning. I wanted to paint them. I don’t think they’d appreciate my usual style of art, but gods, it’s a masterpiece