Catholic Pebble@CatholicPebble
I came back before Easter to plead for more prayers.
I know many of you keep my father in your daily rosaries. I thank you all and selfishly ask for more.
My father is the thinnest he's ever been. He is very tall and he now weighs less than my 12-year-old daughter. He has been struggling with therapy side-effects and infections for so long. His fever is back. He believes his cancer has spread (his next CT scan is in a week). He has trouble breathing, walking and eating.
He is getting tired of new issues and symptoms constantly popping up. When he clears one infection, two new problems happen. It's exhausting and neverending. My father is now contemplating ending all treatment. I'm not sure if he is just saying that to vent or if he really means it.
I am not sure what to even ask for in prayer.
I do know my dad's soul needs help. He is a poorly catechised Catholic who doesn't even know his faith very well. I don't know if he's in a state of grace. I do know that he loves God but this situation is affecting his faith.
Whatever happens, I beg you all to pray for my dad's soul. May God shower him with all the graces he needs to be and remain in the state of grace for the rest of his life. My dad is a sinner who didn't deserve it but he is also a child of God who needs Him.
I am stuck in a limbo trying to decide which path to take. Shall I make peace with all this suffering and try to help my dad do the same? Or shall I foster that extraordinary faith, that hope against hope that Abraham had? This is a valley of tears and people die of cancer while suffering on this Earth. The world is fallen and death awaits us all. On the other hand, this valley of tears is exactly the place where God became incarnate and healed those who suffer. So I want to keep pulling the hem of His garment.
But I am very weak and very sinful. This situation is frustrating and I've lost the ability to pray with loving violence.
Will you help me? Will you pull on His garment for me, asking for a miraculous healing for my father? Will you pray for the almost impossible?
Above all, pray for my dad's soul. I want him in heaven, whenever his time comes.
Pray for my poor mum. She has lost a lot of weight due to stress. God is her strength but she is human too.
God bless you all 🙏