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Me inspecting the same damn scars on my thighs every time I sit on the toilet

@bbyrexi im a mix of religions, so occasionally I'll cook a meal as an offering to a deity, or events like christmas that my family celebrate, birthdays, i dont have any specific fasting events but that might change soon with a new religious path im entering

@FallToMyDeath This is totally valid! I do something similar, I don’t eat anything specific for my religion on a regular basis but there are specific days where we celebrate through the year, with food being a large part of those days so I don’t count at all with what I eat on those events

What’s one food/drink you don’t track? for me it’s pickles gherkins

@babyteethrot malnourished as a kid to binging/emotional eating as a teen, to heavy restriction, vegetarian based as an adult

i always hear about people whose anorexia nervosa turned into binge eating disorder, but where are my fellow people whose binge eating disorder turned into anorexia nervosa 😭

gen, a lot of edtwt posts says losing the weight won’t make u happy but whenever i lose weight i am in fact ecstatic i was soooo happy at my lw especially

you can still lose your period at a higher weight, you can still be incredibly malnourished at a higher weight and you can still have a heart attack for starving yrself at a higher weight. the moment you give anorexia a look you're dooming those who fly under the radar

"wannarexics" are disordered too because wanting or trying to be anorexic isn't normal behavior

@alya_stfu @rorapilled okay but if they heavily restrict/starve they still need specific diet programs to restore nutrients that they havent been getting someone with a low bmi and ana could be healthier than someone with a high bmi and atypical ana. because weight isnt the dangerous part

@rorapilled i think they do this bc they tackle your recovery differently if you dont need to be weight restored (different meal plans and facilities and specialised personnel ig?) but it's gross either way, so invalidating and triggering, i cant imagine it does less harm than good :/

@LeaKayan i hate the feeling of hunger cramps, but if i wait long enough i stop feeling it, and i love the way i can just feel the slight ache and knowing i have that amount of control and self restraint, getting dizzy after standing up is pretty fun half the time but i hate it sometimes

Question for #edtwtㅤ do you guys find pleasure in starving yourselves? genuine question since it was brought up in class

@slowcoagulation @snowkkiyo oh yea, like i have a lot of traits, id say i like up most with anorexia and maybe orthorexia but the main one is i dont count calories, so having categories for obsessing over quantity vs quality vs portions etc. would be so useful to navigate helping people

@snowkkiyo studies between the two have shown the differences between people diagnosed with either are pretty negligible. it makes more sense imo to have a spectrum model or singular diagnosis with sub types for anorexia with specified presentation (compulsions, fear, valuation of body)

i think about this a lot, particularly from a psychological standpoint. receiving the "atypical" diagnosis is far more likely to send someone into a spiral wherein they attempt to achieve the "real" diagnosis, than it is to provide any genuine help or benefit

@yourlittlesisx3 @iloveblu3 no fr. im not usually an asshole but when my stepmother who was like 30kg lighter than me kept saying "omg im such a beached whale" yea.. you are. its disgusting.

@iloveblu3 Honestly bro if I had a friend like that I'd feed into it I would tell them how fat and disgust they are just because they're doing that

Genuinely I get even skinny people can have body dysmorphia but if you say this type of stuff in front of you friend who is obviously bigger then you I wish nothing on you but the absolute worst.

"Grieve in private" has got to be the dumbest shit I've ever read. Encouraging people to isolate themselves and suppress their feelings is cruel, it's how people wind up dead.

@bandorexic theoretically yes but it would take a lot of time and intentional behaviours that you're extremely unlikely to keep up with

If i hit myself when eating will I be afraid of food #foodforthought

@ymkentos @skinnipupp no literally i lost weight so fast when i was constantly going out and had to buy things from the shops or eat fast food instead of being at home all the time and having continuous access to snacks

@skinnipupp “stop eating fast food” i actually gained more weight than ever only eating at home bc i had constant access to the food 😭 people who have never struggled with their weight think they know everything

People who don’t know anything about weight loss: just workout?

@SAYON4RAprince oh i know but so many people just DONT ask. ever. ive been chronically suicidal and stuff for like 8 years at least, no one in my life knows how to treat me, and ive convinced half of them I'm fine, because they cant even learn how to not trigger me if im upset

@FallToMyDeath they can only suggest you to seek professional help atp, my vents and struggles often go ignored or simply forgotten (?) so not everyone can help

@SAYON4RAprince @seravhm i feel like people should just ask 😭 "do you need help" "how can i help" etc.

@seravhm genuinely is because they dont know how to approach you, i understand how you feel but i also get how the other feels, but it sucks nevertheless because it feels like then nobody will ever understand us, unless you specifically tell them what you want but idk

@slutty_slitter never thought of this omg, definitely doing this if they ever admit me

for anyone with stretched ears that gets put in mental hospitals or that kinda shit buy stash plugs i have a pair and i have snuck pills blades coke ket all sorts into places and no one suspects anything works everytime and there under a tenner #drugtwt #shedtwt

@limbicangel I've been on the edges of ED communities and behaviours so long i wouldnt be able to tell you where it started vs where i was just aware and maybe had a few mild quirks

does anyone else not remember the start of their ed? i swear i just woke up one day and i had one

@ikimewo me using the fact that I can't afford groceries to fuel my ED

"People who have anorexia are always rich and privileged" I've seen people develop their ED from not being able to afford food ? SILENCE