꩜ jean ⊹ 🍎₊ ⋆

:· ͜ 𓆝 ⋆｡𖦹 #edtwt intro / moot hunt ﹫ i’m jean ☆̱ 18, he/him, autistic & disordered ،، pro recov always & fatphobes dni rt / like 2 be moots 𖦹 ̼   ᮫

not upping my intake again ghis is horrible. tummy hurts

@strawbnillaaa im just wondering how much it hurts with the piercings. she looks so miserable with every bite :(

theres no way shes not b/p this

For the love of god weight ONCE a WEEK. Your bodyweight FLUCTUATES. One bad meal does NOT make you GAIN 1kg of fat. That's WATER and SALT. Your body is 75% WATER and your body LOVES TO HOLD ON WATER.

i guess i could make up smth like i ate in the kitchen (they often give us food there anyway) and just. not have lunch or whatevr

i wasnt able to skip lunch bc my sister specifically asked to have a meal all together. Jesus i feel so fat and bloated. im tempted to take a laxative but i dont wanna shit myself tomorrow in class when im in a WHITE uniform fucking baking

edtwt do you like soft or hard/raw veggies. my safe veggies are instantly horrible if they get too soft. it's very tied to my autism but i do feel like it's harder to eyeball the calories of smth cooked

@hanahanahanaX i think in my case it's more fear driven? (and also ritualistic). not looking towards a goal to be met (wl) but rather an outcome to be avoided (binging/overeating/gaining)

do you guys consider fasting or restricting a sign of discipline even if its a result of your ed? i always thought of myself of having poor discipline but i heard some people talking about how fasting requires a lot of discipline

mon 20/04 900-1200 calories i'm not sure because i had seconds with the cake :( 10.5k steps i didn't want to count the calories of my sister's birthday cake. she doesn't deserve to see me like that so i just eyeballed my day total. i feel like absolute garbage

🌫️ ⠀ .+ april intake / steps

@decomposedmoth no i think those are figs

this is bananas

omg 😭

"a calorie is a calorie is a calorie" up your intake ❤️

my friend gave me a chinese (?) monster ultra white n it has 28 calories as a 330ml CAN oh my lord. it tastes weird too. ill just log it like this there's not much of a difference with the usual 11 cals but i still wanted the bigger one :/

sun 19/04 848 cals, 82g protein 10k steps

my dads "tantrums" make me so overstimulated they make eating a chore lowkey. win for my ed not win for my autism. i want carrots...

can my dad stop throwing shit around the house Jesus christ

I’m going to say something really “real” if you do stuff daily, work, study, chores, house work etc you most likely won’t be able to stay alive and functioning on 500 cals. Sorry.

i prefer my cals counted on my calculator app BY MY HANDS

@dingster71902 i first lose in my belly and my ribs become more pronounced but my thighs are resisting ☠️☠️☠️

where do u lose weight first and last? my butt is the first to go and my boobs r never going

when my side hustle (my degree) gets in the way of my main hustle (my eating disorder)