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@rick_doobs @MacMallyMMA Thank you, it’s very hard 😢 but therapy and Mac’s support has gotten me out of this dark hole. I’m very thankful 🙏
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@Maiden_babe_ @MacMallyMMA Time heals all. Not completely, but enough to keep going on in life. I’m sorry for yours and Mac’s loss, it’s never easy to go through shit like that.. but Im happy to see you’re healing. 🙏 keep your head up.
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The last seven months have been some of the hardest of my life. At the end of October, me and @MacMallyMMA lost our baby through a missed miscarriage, and it completely shattered us. We had spent weeks planning a Halloween pregnancy announcement, only to end up using that same letter board to announce our loss instead. Because it was a missed miscarriage, my body wouldn’t let go of Jamie on its own, and I had to go through a procedure to remove our baby. I will never forget the nights leading up to it. Watching Mac prepare the bathroom in case I miscarried at home, crying together every night knowing it might be one more night with Jamie still with us. Losing my mom four years ago already broke something inside of me, and this loss reopened every wound I thought I had learned to survive. I became angry at the world, angry at myself, and angry that me and Mac would never get to meet the little baby we spent so many nights dreaming about. We talked about who Jamie would become, what sports they might play, and what kind of father Mac would be. The grief consumed me so deeply that I ran from it the only way I knew how… by pushing away the people I loved most, especially Mac. I tried to start over and convince myself that if I left him behind, the pain would disappear too. Instead, I hurt someone who was grieving just as deeply as I was. Even after everything, Mac never stopped showing up for me. He answered every call, helped me when I was struggling, forgave me when I didn’t deserve it, and loved me through the worst version of myself. Today was Jamie’s due date, a date we once counted down to with excitement and later dreaded with heartbreak. I don’t know who Jamie would have been, but I know they would have had their daddy’s heart. Sometimes I can’t help but imagine what life would’ve looked like surrounded by two people with such big hearts. Daddy and I love you so much, Jamie, and somehow through this pain, you are still helping us heal each other. I’m finally getting the help I need, and I want to apologize for some of the things I said and shared while I was drowning in grief. None of this was anyone’s fault. & Mac isn’t the monster my mind wanted to paint him as during that time.
Thank you, Jamie, for being the angel that still keeps us together. I hope grandma is holding you very tight up there. 👼💕


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@ImTonyJones @MacMallyMMA Thank you, god really took his time with Mac 🙏❤️
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@Maiden_babe_ @MacMallyMMA Mac is a good guy. My stepson is a ufc fighter and because of that I went deep into it and consumed all the media. Mac included. He comes across genuine. I hope you find the peace you both deserve.
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@McKegger11 @MacMallyMMA Yes it kills something inside of you, I’m so sorry you guys had to go through that also 😞 I couldn’t do this alone, trying nearly sent me off the edge. Mac is a very caring and sweet soul to have stuck by me ♥️
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@Maiden_babe_ @MacMallyMMA My wife and I went through something similar with a miscarriage as well. At the time, it felt like the end of world. It sucked and consumed everything about us everyday.
Your day will come. And it will be everything you wanted. Be patient. Trust. Be there for each other.
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@Cerroliveira @MacMallyMMA Thank you and I’m so sorry to hear! 😞 It’s a very hard thing to go through and even harder thing to talk about. I’m glad this platform exists, I’ve never felt so close to ppl before
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@Maiden_babe_ @MacMallyMMA Had the same thing happen to me and my wife on month 4. It is a pain on its own level.
My deepest condolences to you and Mac.
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@TheMMAPanda @MacMallyMMA Thank you, and I’m so sorry for your loss also. 😞 We are really trying! ♥️
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@Maiden_babe_ @MacMallyMMA My condolences to you guys. Went through this at 18, never had the opportunity (financially) for a while, years passed and now idk if it'll ever happen. Continue getting the help, continue living, but most importantly don't give up. Blessings to you and yours. 🙏🏽
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@illenialK @MacMallyMMA Thank you so much for this 🥹 yes, one day we will see our baby Jamie 👼❤️
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@Maiden_babe_ @MacMallyMMA I am so sorry you had to go through that ): just know Jamie felt the love you both had for your baby and one day you'll reunite again somehow someway. Sending so much love your way 😭❤️
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@shaaggybanks @MacMallyMMA Yes, death can bring you to rock bottom. I’m very blessed to have Mac by my side still. Forgiveness is never easy but we love each other even through the ugly and hard times. It’s only up from here ♥️
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@Maiden_babe_ @MacMallyMMA My heart goes out to you guys
Something tragic like this can make you do things or think things you never thought you would.
Never met ya'll personally but from what I see you guys post is that youre 2 loving and compassionate people.
Very sorry for your loss
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