Nanette
539 posts
Nanette
@NanetteInSpace
I'm a wannarexic, I wanna have an ed so bad but don't hate ms enough to actually follow through 🙁 I'm stuck in my life unable to function but not sick enough
Katılım Haziran 2025
30 Takip Edilen9 Takipçiler
this fuckassIdiot texted me on facebook. after a fucking month i was finally at peace and he just had to ruin everything again by reminding me of his existence. i blocked him there too but genuinely are u serious. LIKE.
☆★ bat !!@fr4gi1eb0n3s
i did the thing. i said goodbye to my father once and for all and blocked his number this was my final message ( used translator tool dont mind grammar mistakes )
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@evershells I'm so happy you realized you don't want that anymore... It's a huge step 👍
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I’m so glad I recorded everything, otherwise my mind would’ve forgotten how bad it was at my lw🥲
I genuinely do not want to be THAT ever again & I feel some peace inside myself🥹
Macy⭐️@evershells
Watching this made me feel sick. I cannot look at that body & still want it. I don’t want that, no part of me wants that anymore. Not even my ed. This was beyond too far. I will never ever ever go there again
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NERVERMIND IM SO FUCKING STUPID TO THINK I COULD EVER ESCAPE THIS☹️ I felt this insane rage inside me, I felt angry because THIS⬇️ was a huge step mentally, I got so angry & scared & I screamed the loudest deepest scream I’ve ever done & ripped the fridge drawers while screaming
Macy⭐️@evershells
I’m so glad I recorded everything, otherwise my mind would’ve forgotten how bad it was at my lw🥲 I genuinely do not want to be THAT ever again & I feel some peace inside myself🥹
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the feminine urge to st4rve every time smth goes wrong in your life
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@evershells No I'm glad you ate, you're beautiful at your cw, I swear
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So I ate gf bread with 2 of the little caramel apple light+fit, which btw.. I think anything that tastes cinnamony is now a trigger for me. It makes me think of my peak ed🥲😒 anyway, after, I was like “ok now I want ice cream! So I ate my creami while watching the back rooms
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@hannahstrawbs Please ditch the b/p, it will f*ck you up and you were already so thin here 🙁
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@Renaissance1827 @Trashy_Colors You're doing such a hard thing. I hope your husband is helping you. You can do this.🤘I'm glad you're even thinking about these things and self-reflecting like that. I do see change, I'm not talking physically (that's unfortunately still barely there), but in your thinking, yes!
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@Trashy_Colors I feel like if I could just find the right trigger, things might finally start to change, but I haven't found it yet.😥
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What does "recovery" mean to you? Is it just about gaining weight? If that's the case, then I'm nowhere near recovered.
More than physical recovery, I still need to recover mentally. I have to overcome my fear of gaining weight and the disgust I still feel toward it.
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@terrorful79301 @evershells The point is, OCD with "I will hurt them" didn't even occur to me she might have. What I immediately thought of was paranoia and how devastating it has been with that friend. Macy seems ok and not like someone who would hurt anyone really
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@terrorful79301 @evershells Never hurt him, in fact, that cat and maybe other animals might be the only living beings he hasnt hurt. 🤷
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I’m so fucking pissed i hate everything ☹️
My mom was telling me abt this thing that if a mother brings her baby into a hospital bc she’s scared she’ll hurt it then they will take care of it until she comes back…. Then she said “you might think there a demon inside Whipple
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@evershells I don't know, I don't know you or your brain, but if you're 100% sure you won't, then you're fine, I think...
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So we can take him” IM SORRY WHATTTT?? THAT WAS ONE TIME ONE ONE ONEEEE TIME!! And it was as about ME, not another living creature. Now I’m so fucking scared like guys could I actually hurt him? Could I go crazy & hurt my baby? Should I even get him? Is he better off without me..
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