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IRL vs VTuber This was so cute I had to do it! 🥰

I didn’t expect to share something this personal today, but I wanted to share my experience in case it helps another new MomVTuber. TLDR - Having children doesn’t mean you have to give up VTubing or your dreams. Every family is different. Whether you step away or choose to continue both, only you know what is best for you and your family. You’re not alone, and you’re allowed to choose your own path 💛 ------------------ Hi, I’m Pina Pengin. I’m a mother to a 3yo, a wife, a remote worker, and an ex-corpo VTuber. I decided to publicly share that I was a mom when my son, Percy, was around 1yo. At the time, I didn’t know many openly married MomVTubers, especially VTubers who came from idol-influenced agencies, so I was genuinely afraid that I might receive backlash for revealing that I was married and had become a mother. But the biggest reason I eventually decided to share was my community. I truly love PenPals and see them as a big family. Keeping such a huge and joyful part of my life secret from them became much harder than I expected. I wanted to celebrate this life-changing news with them, but instead, I felt like I had to hide it. That weight eventually became so heavy that I needed professional help for the first time in my life. Through therapy, I learned that I was experiencing postpartum depression, along with chronic depression that had gone unrecognized since childhood. Once I began feeling better, I finally had the mental strength to share the truth about my family, even though it took me about a year after Percy was born. I knew there might be backlash. I was even prepared to end my VTubing journey if the situation became unbearable. That is how determined I was to stop hiding such an important part of my life from the community I loved so deeply. Even with all that fear, I was still 95% sure that PenPals would accept me. When I finally made the announcement, I was completely overwhelmed by the love I received! Not only from my friends and fans, but from the wider VTubing community as well! I don’t think words could fully describe how I felt in that moment 🥹 Of course, there were hurtful comments too 😭 Even though they came from a very small minority, they still hurt. But the sheer amount of love surrounding me overshadowed those negative voices. It gave me the strength to stop dwelling on the negativity and focus on everyone who chose to support me with kindness. So, to any new MomVTubers who are learning how to parent while still wanting to continue VTubing, their hobbies, or their passions, I hope my story reminds you that you are not alone. Of course our children come first, but that doesn’t mean we have to give up every dream or passion we had before becoming mothers. Moms are allowed to have identities, hobbies, careers, and goals outside of motherhood. We are human too!!! That doesn’t mean balancing everything is easy. Being a parent is the hardest thing I have ever experienced and that’s coming from someone who once worked three part-time jobs while attending school full-time! Now I’m a mom, a wife, a remote worker, and a VTuber (Yes, I am a little crazy) 😂 Sometimes I wonder whats the point of doing all of this when I can’t give 100% to any of them. Sometimes it feels like I’m failing at everything or becoming mediocre at all of them. But I love VTubing. I love my family. I also want to financially contribute by continuing to work. I may not be able to focus on my dreams and my journey may be slower, more complicated, and much harder. Maybe I won’t reach every dream exactly the way I imagined. But I don’t want to give up on the things I love, so I have chosen to continue walking this thorny path. My family will always come first, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to stop working my butt off to reach the dreams that matter to me. To my fellow MomVTubers, please don’t let strangers dictate what is right for you or your family. If you decide to step away from VTubing to focus on your family, that is amazing. If you decide to continue pursuing both, that is amazing too. You know yourself and your family better than anyone watching from the outside. Whatever path you choose, I know you are doing your best. Motherhood doesn’t erase the person you were before, and you don’t have to abandon every dream to prove that you love your child 💛

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