Nuclear_Circus

I don't think you get over the people you've truly loved. I don't even think time heals. I just think you forget to remember all the reasons why. Then you rebuild the pile you were left with but it's not like a puzzle, cause it never goes back together the same way twice.

@Nuclearpast DeWalt 100%

Which pope hammer are you grabbing?You can only take one.

@Zora8me I notice it internally. I have near no evidence of external miracles or phenomena.

Do you notice if you experience spiritual/ non-material phenomena by seeing, hearing, feeling or knowing? Or a combination?

It's a tragedy meeting the right one at the wrong time. It's hard to have faith that the connection will coincide in the future after waiting forty years for the initial meeting.

@DadBodTrap @Zora8me There's God, Satan, and our flesh. I sometimes think God allows or influences these thoughts, so that we break. Broken people, when they come to God, are more likely to be authentic about their desire and searching. Compassionate... Degradation.

@Zora8me I would be inclined to agree. I'm trying to reframe my mind in those moments. It could be the same mindset that's keeping me from fulfilling my purpose in the church. The enemy loves to bring us down to keep us from fighting back.

It's hard to fathom, honestly.. I don't particularly love me in those times

@stained__hanes @PenOfBishop That's it I think

@stained__hanes hey brother, what's the website you use to write on. It's free and all that?

I give freely to others, what I must beg to be granted for myself. Boundaries... Are so complex. How do you have boundaries and friendships that are meaningful. Everything in this world is pointless except for human connection. Please I need real authentic, connection. My capacity to love mirrors the capacity of my ability to carry pain. I love near an infinite boundary.

@stained__hanes okay my dude, NYC, added to the bucket list but if I make cake, you gotta give me the unmasked Hanes. The cold cake is worth it. (It's not tho)

@stained__hanes Okay, I think I'll buy your book. Lol I always forget how much I enjoy the randomness of the human mind. While acknowledging the narcissism, my own mind is so random, yet I'm not Norm Mc.Donald. This page has ADHD written all over it. So your brain too. Perfect

@stained__hanes Legend of Dragoon supers... Get used three times maybe four, in the entire game if I remember correctly.

@stained__hanes Wonder what this Mc.Donalds strawberry shake is doing to me then.

@stained__hanes Well call me a fat dog and throw me in a room full of Italian middle aged single women.

Guys, she said I was a source of light and that I slowed her and her mind down. I think she has the potential of making a friend out of me. (There is more to this story but I know the risks and I'm not jumping in both feet first. We both need friends that understand.)

When I do my best, I want it to be apparent to everyone, not just in my head. It's costing a lot to do that though. I don't care what others think of me, because I'm going to do what I do regardless. It does take an inhuman amount of effort to make a convincing argument solely through physical means. I've slept 8 hours over the last 4 days. I am a father, a mother, a bachelor, an employee, a caretaker, an individual. That's a lot of roles to give 50% effort to. I'm attempting to give 90-95%. Will it last... No, but I will respect myself for doing it until something inside me shatters. Then I will know which roles are the most important after being a father.

@stained__hanes @votterbax I talk to the Dirt Man youtu.be/dgsfQaSrQa4?si…

@LibertarianG0th He looked better when he was young.

My response? I’m not MAGA, but I’m certainly not left, but I have a response: Make me. A seven nation army couldn’t hold me back.

@Nuclearpast I think about you from time to time my dude. Rarely check on twitter anymore. You have any intelligent, attractive, emotionally stable single women around you?

Doing those things I do. Still alive. If anyone was wondering. 👍🏻