💫 Petri Chronos 💫 Voidtuber

so i did a thing

0385 jirachi

finding a Singaporean vtuber who doesn't just play league, valorant or hoyoverse games is probably like finding a needle in a haystack

親戚：今年幾歲啦 me：……☺️（默默拿出手機快速算） me：27啦！！ 親戚：長大好快呢

healing your anxious attachment and then slowly becoming avoidant is a part of the journey nobody really talks about. at first, you were just tired of feeling like you were too much. too emotional. too sensitive. always scared of being left. so you did the work. you learned how to sit with your feelings instead of reacting to everything. you stopped chasing. you stopped over explaining. you learned how to calm yourself down. but somewhere in that process, the switch flipped. now instead of holding on too tight, you pull away. instead of expressing everything, you go quiet. you call it peace, but sometimes it feels more like distance. and you start wondering if this is growth or just another form of protection so you never feel that same hurt again. becoming avoidant was never the destination. real healing is balance. it’s being able to stay open without abandoning yourself. it’s learning that you can be soft without being unsafe. you don’t have to shut everyone out to prove you’ve healed. you just have to choose people who make it safe for you to remain present. if you went from anxious to emotionally guarded, it doesn’t mean you failed. sometimes it just means your nervous system is trying to learn a new language.