Wow. I had some lovely chats with a bloke on the dating app and we had tentative plans for a date next weekend.
We had a few things in common.
Without warning, he has unmatched me.
That'll teach me 🙄
(I do actually appreciate those who are honest & let me know what's going on.)
LAB RESULTS TODAY
Six point seven.
I saw my doctor this morning and got my lab results. Most of the numbers sat there quietly, behaving themselves, nothing too dramatic. And then there was one that didn’t just sit—it glowed. It stuck out like a neon light in a dark room.
6.7%.
Not loud. Not explosive. But impossible to ignore.
At 5'10", 168 pounds, I don’t exactly fit the picture most people have in mind when they hear Type 2 Diabetes. This didn’t creep in from years of neglect. It arrived after a year of survival—of caregiving, of stress that never let up, of meals grabbed when I could, of sleep that came in fragments. My body wasn’t being cared for. It was being used to get through something bigger than me.
And now it’s asking for something back.
Six point seven.
A number small enough to dismiss—if I wanted to. But I don’t. Because I know what it represents. A line crossed. Not a collapse, but a correction waiting to happen.
So here’s my next move.
First, I’m not ignoring it. I’ve already seen the doctor. I’m in it now. Whether we decide to bring in something like Metformin or give this a focused three-month push through lifestyle, I’m not drifting through this without a plan. I’ve lived too much life—and too much loss—to pretend this isn’t real.
But I also know this: this didn’t happen because I let myself go. It happened because I gave everything I had to someone I loved.
Now it’s time to give something back to myself.
I’m not chasing perfection. I’m chasing stability.
That starts with food. Not punishment. Not some extreme overhaul I can’t sustain. Just cleaner, steadier choices. Less sugar. Less of the white carbs that spike and crash me. More real food—protein, vegetables, things that digest slowly and don’t send my body into chaos. I’m not trying to be flawless. I’m trying to be consistent.
Then there’s movement. Nothing heroic. No grand comeback story. Just walking—ten, maybe twenty minutes after meals. A little light strength work. Enough to remind my body that it’s still capable of responding, still willing to meet me halfway.
And underneath all of it—the part that number doesn’t fully explain—is the stress. The grief. The quiet toll of the past year. Caregiving doesn’t just wear you down emotionally. It rewires you physically. It raises everything—heart rate, cortisol, blood sugar—until your body forgets what calm even feels like.
So part of my plan is something I’ve avoided: rest. Slowing down. Letting my system breathe again. Continuing the grief work, not pushing it aside. Because this isn’t just about glucose. It’s about healing.
I’ll track my numbers. Not obsessively, but honestly. A simple monitor. Morning readings. A few checks after meals. Turning that neon light into something I can actually understand—and influence.
And then I give it time. Ninety days. Real effort. Real consistency. A chance to bring that number back down, to prove that 6.7 is not a sentence—it’s a signal.
I couldn’t save Rebecca from what took her. That truth will always live inside me.
But this—this is something I can face.
Six point seven isn’t the end.
It’s the moment I finally start taking care of myself again.
There were some tentative plans for something happening later this week. I was looking forward to it. But I've just been told that the plans have firmed up and they now don't include me.
No apology.
This is cruel.
If you want to hurt my feelings, exclude me 🙄
I brought #Abla down to the creek to get her feet wet but she’s already off sniffing foxes.
You just can’t keep a good (make that totally awesome) dog down 🥰
@ripperriver They’re very clever birds.
Friends sister had one it sang the 1312 overture. lol ( The good part)
It landed at their front door one day. Funniest bird.
A lot of people are debating when lethal force would’ve been justified. If you’re in the State of Florida, once he starts kicking the door, that becomes an attempted burglary. A couple rounds through the door at that time would be considered justifiable.