Nancy Charles@cancelwok3
Conversion to Christ is not the end of suffering. It’s the beginning of suffering with extraordinary meaning and purpose.
You don’t go from the first picture (Before Christ) to the second picture (After Christ) without suffering.
In some ways the suffering has become even more challenging at times… that’s sort of just how healing works.
Healing is a complete reordering of the human person back to Christ.
Reordering is painful.
Christ’s mercy is a dismantling of the false self.
It can be extremely painful at times.
Thats the Christian life though. It can be brutal, but it is also devastatingly beautiful. The difference now is not that I dont suffer anymore; it’s that suffering becomes purposeful because it’s ordered towards the highest Good.
We still suffer, and sometimes even a great deal. But it’s nothing like suffering apart from Him. He’s everything.
I used to claim my identity through a million different “I ams.”
“I am trans.”
“I am gay.”
“I am….”
All of these identity claims were, for me, actually just deep attempts to escape suffering. Attempts that actually led to significantly more suffering in the long run, because whenever our identity continues to fracture away from God, disorder multiplies.
The difference now is that I am a daughter of the Most High.
That’s the shift.
Living in the truth of who I am as God made me.
That’s the dismantling.
That’s the work.
Tearing down the altars of self.
The heaviness and darkness of this world is too much to carry on our own. Without Christ, it warps us and the soul continues to turn in on itself as a desperate attempt to find meaning and purpose.
That was one of the things I didn’t understand when I was living out in the world and apart from Christ.
The whole problem of the world is a constant turning towards the self for the answers.
I couldn’t understand why it always felt as though the very gates of hell were pressing in on me.
I didn’t know who Christ was. Thus I didn’t know who I was.
It’s painful to not know who you are, yes… but that pain, when managed by a soul that turns in on itself, becomes something that spiritually disfigures us.
It wasn’t until I looked to Christ that I finally found the truth about myself. And that’s a painful process too, but it’s a pain that restores not destroys.
The suffering is not the problem. The problem is when you reject the only person who is actually capable of helping you carry that suffering well.
Jesus Christ.
You stop thinking that to be loved by Christ means to not suffer, and instead you begin to willingly accept suffering for the sake of finding Him continuously in it.
That’s what my life has ultimately become since my conversion….
A response to being divinely loved.
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