Darwin to Jesus@darwintojesus
We lost our baby.
Today is my son’s birthday, he was still born. Two days ago we found out he had passed. My wife was 20 weeks pregnant.
No one ever really prepares you for this sort of thing, it’s been a nightmare. My wife is sad beyond words and wonders what went wrong. I feel totally useless, I’ve never been good at comforting people, it’s never come naturally to me. I can’t take the pain away from her, I wish that I could.
I think both of us feel responsible for what happened. Neither of us wanted another boy, we weren’t planning on having another baby for at least another year. This whole time we were only thinking about how much work this would be, how inconvenient it was… and now he’s gone and all I’m left with is regret.
They say you don’t know what you have until it’s gone… and it’s true. You don’t. We had a blessing from God, a little boy that I could have thrown in the air, tickled, wrestled, taught to be a man… and now he’s gone.
I wish I could have known him.
