ghoulie (spooky arc) 🏳️‍⚧️ 📼👻

@bansheecooper whoops i forgot to sign out of this on mobile ANYWAY i've followed u on the new one lol

@VHStrogen sad! hope i will find u agian

im abandoning this account because its blocked and shadowbanned to oblivion, I'm making a new one where I will be normal and post less. I will follow a lot of my mutuals but since I have a lot i'll probably forget a few, sorry. everyone else feel free to find me on your own terms

@PISSDRlNKER yea

does anyone else find it difficult

@riseinthedying are you serious

oomf is not in the right headspace to receive wisdom about how your mindset shapes your external reality

@phoeebeeeeeeeee @CamBang3r @jirachytft HRT does not affect bones

@_Anhasia fuck you

@VHStrogen I really don't know how to respond here because you're adamant in your defeatism and you seem compelled to police how others express their joy. I hope you find the peace and serenity you deserve.

@_Anhasia oh you're using that argument. lol. don't.

@VHStrogen Your perspective is coloring that in no small part, and I have no insight beyond telling you to begin there. That's a lie, I also feel compelled to say: I'm more than a decade your senior. Live life more and then decide you're doomed to never experience joy.

@riseinthedying @_Anhasia no? I asked her a genuine question because I think the "HRT is magic" statement is fundamentally misleading and harmful

@VHStrogen @_Anhasia are you joking rn

@riseinthedying @_Anhasia show me the harassment

@VHStrogen @_Anhasia julie pleeeeaaaaaaaase don't harass random women about this

@_Anhasia I am genuinely happy for you but your statement was harmful I'm 22 months in and I look like a man, I will never experience joy

@VHStrogen Or maybe it's an incredulous expression of joy from people who didn't know how transformative it would be for them? Maybe stop trying to police how other people express their joy and do the work necessary to find your own?

@_Anhasia okay, good for you. not everyone gets that, so "HRT is magic" is a misleading and bullshit statement

@VHStrogen I'm so confused why the dialogue is so narrowly focused on the appearance aspect because for the first time in my life I just feel good and happy in a way I never knew was possible. And some of that legitimately just comes from the work hormones do on your brain.

Perhaps I would see HRT as "magic" if it worked for me. People who got incredibly good results with HRT obviously won't have a problem calling it "magic", people who didn't get that good results will probably have a problem with calling it that.

@riseinthedying I didn't go in with the express intention of hurting myself i just decided to look at them and every single one of them passes better than me including some with lower doses/less time on hrt than me which unsurprisingly makes me extremely upset

@VHStrogen but again, it is worse to purposely see them for the purpose of hurting yourself.

@riseinthedying yeah and even if I wasn't I still would have to see them constantly

@VHStrogen "just been scrolling through the qrts on this post"

@riseinthedying I don't purposefully look, they're fucking everywhere

@VHStrogen it is worse to purposely look for things that hurt to see.

@riseinthedying please point out anything I said that is wrong

@VHStrogen dawg.

@riseinthedying even if I stopped it wouldn't matter cause successful transitioners are everywhere I look so I get constant psychic damage

@VHStrogen nope

@riseinthedying I deserve it

@VHStrogen how about not scrolling through the qrts. that's just self harm

@jadegotbeans i might ask around if anyone doesnt mind me pinching a dose but like idk, also nhs is probably a no-go zone, they have no idea i'm trans and honestly i wouldnt even know where to start

@VHStrogen anything you can do through the nhs or any local girls with extra??

new estradiol vial has leaked so is contaminated, and now i'll be without HRT for several weeks because i DIY actually fuck my fucking life