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Joel, I know I'm wasting my time writing this since I know you genuinely don't care. None of your ilk do and that's a big reason why young men in particular are being pulled towards Orthodoxy. In 2016, my brother who was estranged from the family for many years after converting to Islam killed two people, one of which was my uncle and the other was my uncle's friend, and then took his own life. This was during a time in which I myself was wallowing in the abyss of sin and the confluence of my own life and my brother's actions made me ask myself, "what are you doing with your life? What is even the point of it all?" And for a year I searched for a reason why. I came from an evangelical background, grandmother took me to Sunday school, but around middle school, it wasn't a part of my life. I ID'd as Christan but it didn't mean anything and I certainly didn't live a Christian life. I bounced from church to church and it all felt hollow, empty. I asked, "if I got baptized tomorrow, what would keep me here?" I'd sit in the pews and look at the white walls and listen to a hollow sermon that was little more than an inspirational speech with Jesus sprinkled into it. I laugh because I attended one church several Sundays in a row and the same person introduced himself to me each time. There was nothing to bind me to any place. In 2017, I decided to drive up to an Orthodox Church I found online. I was a history nerd, so that's how I learned of Orthodoxy. I came in, didn't understand the liturgy, the icons, the incense, the chanting, it was all new. But in that moment, it was the first time in years I had actually felt a sense of peace. It was the first time Christ felt real. Not just a story, but a living presence. It was the peace of God I had never known before. All that pain, all that self-hatred, all the despair, in that moment, God's hand rested upon me and whispered in my heart that I'd be okay. As I delved deeper, Orthodoxy provided something no other church had. It made demands of me. It expected me to strive for virtue. But most of all, and what I had always needed to hear, was that my sin was not a part of me; it wasn't who I was. My sin was not my identity and I could strive to become what God intended me to be. It said, "you have to make a real change, but that change is who you truly are, the restoration of the image of God you were made in." It promised hard work. But it also promised that I could be free of the struggles and self-hatred that I and so many of my peers face today. My story is unique in particulars but not in theme. Many broken and damaged people, people who grew up Christian like myself, broken like myself, are striving for truth and meaning. People who want to find Christ but are left asking "what even is faith, what even is Christianity?" Some find Orthodoxy through their struggles, others who delve into church history and see Orthodoxy at its genesis. I was baptized in 2019, but I know 100% for sure this sentiment has only grown post-Covid when every church leader turned his back on his flock and closed churches while riots in the streets burned down cities. Young men in particular are looking for truth, for meaning, for a reason why, for a reason and motivation to struggle. For you to dismiss this all as racism is precisely why no one of my generation cares to listen to you. You don't even pretend to care about the genuinely soul searching and pain so many have gone through to actually hold onto and find Christ. If the Orthodox Church is really such a blight as you make it out to be, the only people to blame are men like yourself who have utterly failed to demonstrate and show a positive vision of Christianity that so many are searching for and finding in the Orthodox Church.