daniel

Day1 i had 1 redbull, 1 americano w sfvan, 8oz of whole milk, 1 croissant. weather was unbearably beautiful today. Got 2 sit by the em necklace. 19k step. ,Going for a 2 mile pace. wanted to bp, didnt. Almost thru a pack of cigs. Miserable and full of shame and disdain 4 my body

maybe ill keep this one going. post pics where applicable . …. … All i desire is a place to catalogue my suffering. im going to try to stop bping. dont copy me i am but a compilation of failures even at my ed and i am doing this in a way that only makes sense 2 Me .

speedrun thread

Please push me down the stairs Do it do it do it do it

@franspirals wat happen

This is all because i stop abusing drugs

It’s jerk your therapist from behind with your hand over their mouth Tuesday

popped 40mg this morning going to snort yhe other 10 before i attempt to write my essay Yayyy!!!!

adxr makes fasting so easy thank Fuck

i've had some classic "we're all just atoms" experiences on psychedelics but the drug that really facilitated personal breakthroughs + connection to the universe was two cocktails or three beers

When you lowkey got an eating disorder

Jk Fuckir Pad thai bp

banging at the walls of my enclosure (Fat and Skin)

Omfg im going to make a daily cals thread so i feel some semblance of accountability i csnt live in this huge body anymore

i want new gw by my birthday (early june) Who thinks i can live off pedialytes and a nightly ensure (Every glimpse i get at my own thighs makes me not want to chew and swallow anything) (I will probably desire bp within the next few days if not sooner) (Lets daydream otherwise)

if i just stick it for two months theres thermodynamically no way i wont lose what i want to & then some. The bping should get better now that im out of school. maybe it will get worse. Hope not

im calm now i decided to start weighing my food again 700 cals + my morning runs and all the consistency in the world should make me king anorexia once more

@stonervosa2 im one

Showing up everywhere smelling like cigarette smoke and looking like shit