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This gentleman, Ibrahim Yucel, a Turkish man who was 42 years old at the time of the events, decided in 2013 to have his head locked in a cage with the intention of quitting smoking; his wife was the only one who had the keys and she only opened it during meals.
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TL;DR: I will be having awake brain surgery 4th of July
- It's extremely likely to be a benign tumour
- Biopsy to confirm (taken during surgery)
- Apart from the surgery shouldn't be too serious to worry about.
Story/Thoughts:
In April I had 2 seizures within a week, both while I was asleep.
The 1st one happened at around 3am, as for memory I just remember being in the ambulance for a few seconds which felt like a dream to then being awake in the ICU. Their diagnosis was "Allergic reaction" as it appeared I couldn't breathe initially.
The 2nd was a week later at around 11am I would wake up then go back to sleep etc. but then I woke up with 4 paramedics looking over me saying they had to take me to the hospital (which was nearby)
I was staying at my girlfriend's place during this, who was the one that ended up initially seeing and getting help from others.
They decided to then do a CT scan that found a mass in my brain which prompted the MRI that is in the video. They also put me on anti-seizure medication that luckily has meant I haven't had one since.
The brain tumour appears to non aggressive and likely been there/growing slowly for quite a long time but due to recent events it made the follow ups by my surgeon/doctor to recommend doing surgery to remove as much as possible and run a biopsy. The biopsy will decide what future course of action is best.
(I'm from UK so NHS diff. Don't have to pay anything)
As for my thoughts, the most impactful one has been seeing the impact on those around me. Especially my girlfriend, who had to see everything unfold twice. With days following would wake up during the night to see if I was still alive to any slight difference in noise I made. For me being unconscious through them moments its unimaginable the emotions and feelings she experienced. I'd do anything to carry the burden alone instead for her seeing a seizure happen to someone you care greatly about.
For me, it's been surreal but manageable. In the past I've been very dissociative of myself and the world around. This has helped with the anxiousness of the diagnosis where I'm only affected by the impact I have on others. However it has shown me another perspective which I greatly would like to be better and more personal towards myself and to reflect that.
Another thing relating to the above was that during (2017 - Early 2018) before I started production I had 0 direction feeling completely lost. I thought my life was over where I preyed for the end credits to roll as I'd naively thought I'd experience all to experience in life.
However, I then found the one thing I was best at which is my production work. My talent was being able to show off other peoples great talent. There's so many amazing stories that exist untold and only realised through the means of production.
It was something to live for and every production felt as if it were a reflection of what my entire life was. It's truly made me a much better person with those I've met and the experiences from it all.
There are times I get overwhelmed with anger and pain as I still see the state of many shows I'd like to be involved in suffer from a complete lack of vision and execution from incompetence or poor management. To the extent that I feel so passionate about what I do that I'd gladly spend the last day I had on earth directing a live broadcast while dying for my last breath to call end of show. I feel many people who make up these stories such as the players, dedicate their life and have made sacrifices to be there that don't get reflected in the broadcasts that highlight them.
Though with such extremities I then come down to reality where each day is different and new. I find moments of bliss with spending time with people I care about and I want to live to see such opportunities and memories ahead created thanks to the time I've spent with my girlfriend and my work that got me to the person that I want to be.
Thanks for reading...
I'm very inactive publicly about my personal thoughts/stories. But this has prompted me to do so.
If you wanted to talk about any experiences you may have had with things surrounding this nature too feel free to msg.
Also I really like to call about production stuff and discuss my work so if in the future you'd want to learn or talk, then send me a msg and we could have a call.
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