шин ݁ᛪ༙ is fatchudmaxxing

can you believe i let him down i cannot too

@dis0rderedsumi WOWOWOW YOU'RE SO COOL AND CUTE AND BEAUTIFUL HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

turned 21 today 😛 dad took me to olive garden for dinner and i lowkey ate SO much i was uncomfortable and then at the bar my last shot of patron did me in and i vomited but i was lowkey relieved

so annoying to see ppl sayin BED is just a lack of control as if that’s not what all eds are. like omg yesss my brain is forcing me to walk for three hours or i freak out yesss i’m so in control 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😭😭

@cottonxanny ur so fkn cool holy style ily🙏

dream bag just came in the mail LUL ive wanted this bag fer YEARSSSSS xD

@ezrajumpscare ME TOO RAHHHHH 🥀🥀🥀

@cttmhz fr but i think mine is cus im constantly constipated like just poop bro ://

bloated vs normal genuinely wtf

i don't know if i made it to 15s again i haven't checked yet because im too scared, i eat a lot of voluminous food and burn some of the cals off so i may see my weight increase because of the food and water weight...

@boyhurtz no no i don't deserve this at all, it just means im useless and weak willed and not disordered at all because everyone is getting worse and im fighting for my life trying to eat under 1000 this is so fucking pathetic and embarrassing im so sorry for complaining, forgive me niko:(

@cttmhz you are a human being shin, our bodies were not made for starvation it is desperately trying to keep you alive. focus on healing your body please 🫂

it's over, im not the same anymore i guess i ran out of the fuel for this relapse and despite how horrible it is to admit, this is the truth i am tired of restricting and feeling all of the effects i admit it, i officially can't restrict like i used to, simply because im tired

been eating so much that i might've been doing unintentional harm reduction at this point 😞 don't remember a day when i ate under 1000...

@bambimeals thank you i needed this 🖤

everyone’s going through some shit lately, let’s all just wait I feel like it’s energy changing for the better but now it feels depressing… like let’s just try to be positive for now

im so fucking fat i disgust myself 🫩

@EllyIsPurging FUCK i thought it was bigger for me but i just checked and with my cw 40k burn around 900 AND I'M NOT EVEN SHORT more like average height... wtf is this hell 🥀🥀

I wish my 40k steps burned 2500 it’s only 800 💔

hunger pains vs being full🫩

@eie628 🥹🥹🥹🥹 обнимаю ((( 🫂🖤🖤

@cttmhz господи как я понимаю

i need to get out of this country i can't do this anymore

@AnemicAngel777 AWWWW thank you so much!!! actually i always cut my hair at the hairdresser's because if i tried myself it would've been really bad hahaha 🥹

@cttmhz Omggg I love your fringe I've tried to cut my own like that but I never get it quite right

the haircut btw it turned out too short but it's because i have hair length blindness hahahah and it's ok, i still like it, i feel a little bit more like myself now

@seeyoulater2003 yeaahhhh :(( i would take literally any other place instead of my face ;(

@cttmhz tbh yeah, i wish all my fat went to my ass and legs and less on my stomach face and arms

anyone out there wants to trade storing fat in your face to literally any other place? anybody? no? okay..🥹 jk but the amount of fat i carry in my face is actually horrifying.. i wonder how many ppl have the same problem

I hate eating in public it feels like this:

one day i WILL make it to the evening to satisfy that one craving of some comfy savoury meal that i've had for eternity instead of consuming 927366218 cals worth of coffee and snacks before and at work

@boyhurtz 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 I LOVE YOU FOREVER

@cttmhz id never turn my back on shinnie idgaf

so chronically online that i had a dream about having a bad take on here and everyone turning their back on me

@boyhurtz LETS TRADE OMG I HATE THE FAT ON MY FACE SO MUCH BRO 🥀🥀🥀🥀

@cttmhz i will take fatness on my face just please god take it from my hips and thighs